Honestly, I’m so pointless. I’m so sad right now.

I don’t like it when people leave me behind. I feel lost and empty. Just like right now. I feel so empty. Why did you just leave me? Without saying bye? I’m sorry if I said something that you don’t like. Please comeback. ): I miss you. I had something to tell you tonight but I just don’t have to courage to say it anymore. I’m sorry if it feels like I’m dragging you down. Not telling you things. I’m sorry that I’m so mean to you sometimes and rude. When I say that I hate you, I don’t. Even if I do, it’s in a good way. I’m sorry that I don’t do anything in physics when we do labs. I’m sorry that you have to sit beside me sometimes because I don’t talk. I’m just sorry. I really am. Besides saying sorry, I don’t know what else to say. My words are lost. I’m lost. So please, don’t be mad at me and not talk to me. It makes me really sad. I’m really sorry. Please come back again.

It never works out. Never ):

How come so many things in my life never seems to work out? Like never. I’m tired of this. I really am. I wish all the answers that I need in my life can be found on Google. Sometimes I don’t even know what I want. I wish I knew. If only everything has only one answer, then I won’t have so many difficulties deciding. If only things would work out just once. I just want things to work out just once. Is that something really hard to ask for? Just once. Please. The past few weeks, I’ve been thinking a lot. I don’t know why but I feel tears in my eyes. All of a sudden, I want to cry. But I don’t want my dad to worry but I can’t help it. EFFFFFF