What I really want right now is to go outside and take a walk and to feel the light breeze against my face.

I hope he's feeling better. I hope he's okay. I'm so worried about him :/

The fact of losing him scares me so much... I pray with my whole heart that he is okay

I remember when I gave you the heart that I made you, you didn't even look at it until I pointed it out....

That awkward moment when you say something meaningful to someone or something deep and all they do is not reply or look at your comment and then goes back to what they were doing.

I get that a lot from you.

Sometimes I wonder why do I even try? Like honestly why do I.

In our relationship you are much stronger than I am. You can still maintain to focus on your school work but I can't.

I wish I was stronger, more self-motivated. At times I wonder if only I was just a tiny bit smarter, a tiny bit stronger would things have turned out differently? If I didn't care as much would simple blunt replies such as "me too" wouldn't bother me. I feel so dumb. Like come on. Wake up. Do you homework instead you dummy. When will you ever wake up?

From now and on I will just bottle everything inside me because it just makes everyone's lives that much easier. From now on it will just be you and I blog. I'm surrounded by so many yet I have no one to talk to, I'm lonely. I can no longer turn to the person that I once turned it. It just will not work.