I actually really wanted to see you today but when I did I regretted. I thought that I don't care anymore but I realized that I still do. But you're always with her. Seeing you guys walking together makes me feel a sense of happiness but at the same time hurt. Because the girl with you is not me. I wish I never met you. I wish you never started talking to me. I wish you never told me to add you on msn because now, I'm always hoping that you would message me. What hurts me even more is that you don't even remember half the things I say to you. Even if I told you like 3 times. I just want you to think about me once in awhile? Is that a lot to ask for? Like really. Literally, everything reminds me of you. Even at my happiness moments, somehow you would just get into my mind. And I would feel bitterness because the happiness I'm getting right now is not spent with you. And all the times I spent thinking about you, you think about someone else. This is too much for me. But what's worst is that every time I try giving up and letting go I can't do it. At this moment I just can't. And I hate myself for being so weak. If I was strong enough to let you go, I wouldn't even be writing this. I'm scared, like always. But at least you are happy.

"The time to relax is when you don't have time for it." -Jim Goodwin and Sydney J. Harris

What a stressful day thanks to chemistry. Because English class is all the way upstairs, by the time I got down to chem all the seats were taken and I had to sit at the very back with my friend -_-" It’s so stressful because I cannot see the overhead that well... and she has to write so SMALL! D: It’s not off to a good start already! How am I going to survive this semester? ): I'm so scared. I miss first semester already! :/


Well, at least all my other classes went well. Physics was kind of awkward though lol.... But at least I can see the board/overhead. English was awesome actually. Small class :) I like being in a smaller class because you can sit where ever you want. Honestly screw chemistry!