I swear it ends worse every single time

This is not what I want. Its not what i want at all. I feel so very sad. I should just stop talking like fuck I'm not making things better. Words hurt. :( I felt so bad at what he said. It's like someone stabbed me in the heart. Why do things like this always happen on a Friday night :( I feel so sad. Like really..... Is it really over? Are we over? My life is a repetition. Everything keeps repeating over and over again. It never ends. I feel like I'm never important enough to anyone. What am I even living for? I have no sense of direction. I'm lost and I don't think I'll ever find my way back.