The weather outside right now is so gloomy. It kind of makes me think. I don’t know why but it does.
We haven’t really been talking for the past few days. I don’t know what happened but we just gradually not talk as much. We barely even say a sentence to each other now. I think he lost interest in me. I can’t seem to find anything to talk to him about anymore. Sometimes it feels like I only exist when he needs something from me or when he thinks of me more than a friend. I don’t want to sound rude or anything but that’s how I feel. I hope I’m wrong because to me he doesn’t seem like those type of people. I don’t even know what I’m doing. Everything just seems so different now. To be honest, I miss what we had before. I find it so hard to talk to him now. But it’s better to realize it now than later. I was really hoping that something would change within these last few days and it did. It feels like we grew more distant from each other. To be honest, the end of this month was a really depressing week for me. Not in terms of him but in terms of everything. Sometimes I wonder if I’m doing the right thing. I want him in my life but I guess some things just aren’t meant to be. You know. It’s not like I didn’t try, I did. But now I’m just at the point where I don’t know if I should just move on or not. I think I’m just making him bored in physics now. If I could go back in time I would still like to meet him. This time of my life was special. At least it was special to me.
