I want to talk to you, but I’m scared. I’m really scared. I seriously don’t want to annoy you or anything. I don’t want you to hate me. I’m scared. I miss you. I bet you don’t even miss me. When I miss you, I would look at your go card. Thanks for giving me that. It’s evidence that this is not a dream. It’s real and that it actually happened. Thinking back to it still makes me smile (y)

Guess I’ll go to sleep now. I’m actually lacking sleep lately. I’m so weird sometimes. The earlier I sleep the more tired I get. -_- Tomorrow I shall finish all my homework since I slacked off so much today. I fail. I really do. I want to get a new book from the library. My sister doesn’t recommend the book that I took out. Reading was never my thing but I do like to read mangas.

 Dear tomorrow, I wonder what it’s going to be like. Will I actually finish all my homework? I tend to fail a lot. I wish achievement was my thing. I’m not really good at anything now that I think of it. I don’t even know what I’m talking about right now. I just feel like typing. I just don’t want to think of him but why am I thinking of him as I type this. What am I even typing about? 

Our unfinished puzzle. No one finished because someone stole one of the envelopes containing that piece..... -_-"

One of the pictures that we had to take for our scavenger hunt! (y)

Diversity!! Life is full of diversities. There are just so many different choices and so many different paths to choose from. Anything can lead to something special. 

It was such an interesting morning! At Chinese school today our class and some other classes joined and we had a scavenger hunt. It was fun! Our team was pretty close. But like seriously Alex Smith -_- HAHA He was one of our questions that we had to find. HAHA! It was fun though. These two random guys were wandering around the school. He talked to us for a bit. He was cute in a way but like yea. LOL I hope to do it again next year. Jheez, grade 12 next year already! I’m so not ready but I will make the best out of it.

There are 12 more days until our first exam which means 12 more days with him. HAHA wow, it’s really coming to an end already. So quick! This year went by so fast. Semester one still feels like yesterday. It’s so weird. Sometimes you can’t wait for things to end but when it actually does come to an end you will actually miss it. After exams are all over I probably won’t see him until grade 12 which is 80+ days. I counted. I wonder how those days will be like. A lot can happen in just two months.  I’m scared in a way. I would seriously like to know how all of this is going to end. I’m always curious. I wonder what will happen between me and him in grade 12. I would seriously like to know. I kind of want to fast forward just to see what's gonna happen. I do hope that one day he can find his own happiness that truly belongs to him. If anything I want him to be happy even if that happiness is not with me. But for now, I hope that something special will happen within these last 12 days. Something to end this school year with a good note. 

2NE1 - LONELY

That kind of hurts. I was talking to him last night and he didn't reply to my message for over half an hour. I was afraid to message him because he might be busy but I did anyway. So apparently he was on the phone. Oh, I see. So you just leave someones message like that. I was waiting for him to reply. I seriously felt like an idiot. If I knew he wasn't going to reply I would have left like a long time ago. I only went on to talk to him. I was a bit sad to be honest. I don't have the right to be mad because I choose to wait. But he didn't even say anything. He just left my message and I'm still waiting for a reply that I'm never going to get. I'm a fool. I really am. I just don't understand. What do I even mean to him if I mean anything at all. I wanted to call him once but he told me not too. He didn't tell me directly but I got the cue. I'm not that stupid. I just can't get over the fact that he just left my message like that. He didn't even say be right back :( and I was stupid enough to wait. I disappoint myself sometimes.