you know the saying expect the unexpected. It feels like I've been experiencing that a lot this year. Well, at least the first half of the year. I can't believe that its July. Met a great group of friends that I never thought of meeting. Everything that happened between me and him up until this very moment. It just seems so unreal to me now. I wasn't expecting that he would tell me this. I actually already let go of finding the answer because it really doesn't matter to me any more? What difference does it make if I know the answer or not? Does it really change anything that already happened? I can't think right now. I really need to absorb what he just said. I just can't get it through my head. He told me that as time went by in physics he grew a liking of me. I guess that was something.. We got close (a little too close ) that sometimes I wonder what we are. It felt like we were just friends but at times we were more. He said that he distant himself from me because he felt that we were getting too close. That was so random though... how he just stops talking to me. I was really sad because it just hurt so much. Thinking back to it still hurts that's why I don't think about it. I guess I'm relief now? After awhile knowing the answer just didn't matter to me any more. Knowing that it doesn't change what we are. But in a way I'm glad he told me. I should be sorry too... I allowed all those things to happened. I'm not sorry that it happened but sorry that I could have dealt with it better.
Boring yet unexpected. My day today:
Woke up... ATE. We went to McDonald's. And randomly out of no where we decided to go to polo. I was like not expecting that. I had like no money. Mandy only paid 5 cents for the bus ride while I paid two dollars! I felt bad eating all my friends food. D: BUT I WAS SOOO HUNGRY! I want to go shopping.
