I’ve never had such feelings for anyone before. I love him I honestly do with my whole heart. Yet, I feel I don’t deserve such a great guy like him. Am I really worth it, to give up something that you have always wanted something that you want to experience? Like dang… It would kill me so much to lose you. I can’t imagine a life without you in it. Yet I want you to fulfill your dreams and hopes. I love you. Although our dreams may not cross the same path but any path I take I hope it leads back to you. Because I truly believe that you are my destiny. The feelings I get when I see you, when you hug me, kiss me, and when you say “I love you.” That sharp cut I get in my heart when you tell me you’re not feeling well, when I don’t see you at school and when you’re sad. I love you. I want you to be happy and smile when you wake up every morning to the beautiful sunshine, a cloudy morning, a drizzling morning or a snowy morning. I want to shovel the snow with you every morning before we go to work and mown the lawn in the summer, or walk our dog name Pluto while strolling beside each other, eating cream cones and embracing each other’s hands. I want to wake up to your breakfast every morning and when you come home I will have dinner prepared for you and hang your coat in the closet. I want to watch movies with you all night long and just fall asleep on each other in each other’s arm. I want to have a candle light dinner with you in our cozy house and look through the box that I gave you filled with memories from the past, and laugh and smile at each other because of the happiness that is indulged within our heart. I love you. Will this all become a reality one day? When our dreams and hopes are different? Is this just another story that can only come true if I write it into a book? I love the story of us because you’re the main character in my story.
The weather seems so nice out right now. I wish we can go for walk. I miss you a whole lot.
