slept in today again. Went to St.Vital. I didn't buy anything, just shopping for Christmas gifts. Life is hard. My friend is still confused. I wish I could help her, but I think she needs to get through this herself. Sometimes love hurts. I still remember I liked this guy back in junior high. He's pretty great and stuff but we go to different high schools now. Which is a good thing because I know there's no future for us. When I knew that he actually likes my friend. I still liked him. I never thought about telling him that I like him, it might ruin our friendship and make it awkward. I don't regret though for not telling him even though I might not see him again for the rest of my life. Only like 3 people knew. I wish he will never know. I still remember I was really sad and down after the first few days of graduation. Missing him and stuff but now that I think of it, maybe it's better this way. I know that we will never have a future so it's better to let go early than to drag it. It really hurts. All the guys that I liked never likes me so right now I don't want to like anyone until I think I'm ready. Because liking someone that doesn't like you back sometimes can hurt, a lot.

slept in today. So proud! (: . Didn't really do anything special today. I miss school and seeing my friends but do need a break. School is hard work for me. xD

Last Day of school

Last day of school today. I'm gonna miss everyone. I decided that I'm going to stop hating him. Takes a lot of work and time just to hate someone and since it happen already and it's the past I'm just gonna let it go. "It take a lot more courage to forgive someone than to take on a revenge". I rather have one more friend than one more enemy. Even though he is really annoying in a bad way. Must move on with life. (:.

I feel less stress now over school . No more test and the day after tomorrow is our winter break. Physics test was not hard it was difficult. There was a question that I did not get at all. In drafting we are making a gingerbread house. This guy in my drafting class read a message I sent my friend on msn and he's like telling everyone that I like this guy. Which I don't. He's "not really telling everyone", he's just saying it out loud in class. Everyone at my table heard. I don't even like him. GEEZ.

going to tyndall at 6:30 to watch my brother's winter concert. still confused. Should study now.!

so happy my geo test is cancel. But I still have a physics test tomorrow. That sucks. LOL. I got the gift my sister sent me. It's a teddy bear. (:

and I'm kind of confused right now. I have a friend and there's this guy. They talk and my friend thinks this guy is pretty cool. And this guy well. I don't know how to explain it. She doesn't know if she likes that guy or not. When that guy is not there she wonders what he's doing but when he is there she just seems really umm well I don't know haha. And sometimes well, she wants to know what he's thinking. It's just really really really really confusing making me confused too. So yeah. LOL. :D

and geez I hate physics now.

LOL I told my Geo teacher that I saw her at polo yesterday. haha. So much homework. What a pain. And I have two test coming up. I should really be studying. A friend of mine is sick and didn't come to school. Hope he gets well soon.! Empty recycling bins after school.

My new and updated christmas list.

I went shopping today so a few things are crossed off. so here's my new list. Still sort of the same.

1.Clothes (LOL)
2.Teddy Bear
3.Pencil
4.Wallet
5.Music Box
6.Macbook
7.New camera
8.Death note book # 5.
9.Purple converse shoes

Actually I think it's the same.

SO here are my goals for this winter break. It may change though or I might not do it but I will try and stick to it.

1.Polo and movie with friends (so gonna happen)
2.Study for exams. (better early than late)
3.Get a hair cut.
4.Finish they kiss again drama.
5.Shopping and buying clothes (it's not a goal. it's a hobby. :D)

What a great day (:

Finally I passed level 9 swimming. So happy. For some reason everyone in our swimming class skip and only my sister and I swam. So tired but so worth it. Went shopping at Polo Park. Brought two hoodies. :D One from American eagle and one from west 49. The one from west 49 was $68.00. I beg my parents so long and they finally brought it for me. But I still have to pay $40.00. Better than paying all $68.00 though. When we got home, me and my brother put up our Christmas. Now it feels more like Christmas. I LOVE CHRISTMAS. !! && SHOPPING, and buying clothes. What a great day. !

My Christmas List 2009 :D

Here is a list of things that I currently want for christmas. YAY. I JUST LOVE CHRISTMAS>

1.Skinny Jean(s)
2.Teddy Bear
3.Hoodie(s)
4.Pencil
5.Music Box
6.Wallet
7.Converse Shoes (the purple one)
8.Death Note Book #5
9.Macbook
10.?? I'm not sure yet

Did my presentation on Raymond Lam today for chinese school. I left out a "few parts" and my teacher was like "your done already, It seems like you still have a lot of infomation". LOL>. Raymond Lam is cool. :D. I'm so tired, after what seems like a really long day. But pretty good day.

林峰 愛不夠 LYRICS

A song I'm listening to right now. Love not enough- by raymond lam.

收藏在眼眸　常徘徊左右　愛猜到沒有　
愉快玩笑後　能全然退後　你開心就夠

這種感覺太親厚　講一千句也不夠　
假使講了你聽到後　或會走　
這種戀愛太罕有　不須真正擁有　
成全　衷心祝福然後　就放手

放手　放開所有　彼此更自由　
放手　其實我絕非愛得不夠　
放手　豁出所有　還有這個好友　
已經　已經足夠

遙遠是宇宙　靜靜在背後　去看守就夠　

這種感覺太親厚　講一千句也不夠　
即使一剎有過衝動　挽你手　
這種戀愛太罕有　不須真正擁有　
成全　多捨不得仍然　是放手

放手　放開所有　彼此更自由　
放手　其實我絕非愛得不夠　
放手　豁出所有　還有這個好友　
已經　已經足夠　

放手　我的牽掛　找不到盡頭　
放手　期望你幸福甚麼都有
也許　愛很深厚　然而我早看得透　
放手　至可擁有

So haha. "he" apologize to me. But still no offence I don't want my friends hating on me for things I didn't do. There's no trust. There's suppose to be trust in friendship. I'm going to have to find about it.

Pretty good day today expect for the last 15 minutes in math class. My math teacher gave us a quiz. He took him like 10 minutes to make up the quiz so that left us like 5 minutes to do it. GEEEZ. What a pain. Doing my last minute project for my presentation tomorrow. I started 2 weeks ago but then I kind of forgot about it.

christmas concert tonight

Later tonight at 7:00 is our winter concert. I can't wait. Sometimes VPA is just the life. And I am still hating on that fcuking loser. Some good news. I pass the special language credit exam. YAY> got 70 something. haha I forgot. I don't have to do it anymore. Now I can focus more on school.

1 more day

Dress Rehearsal today for our winter concert. I think it's pretty great expect for the getting on stage part. I met a new friend in choir today. Her name is Dee. And another new friend. She's in grade 11, I forgot to ask what her name was. Another practice tomorrow at lunch. I think we need it, just to organize it more. Can't wait for tomorrow night. It's going to be great.

I'm still pissed off at "that guy". Geez he's so rude and that fucking attitude of his really needs to stop. He's just going to make everyone hate him. Like seriously what is his problem? I'm not going to waste my time thinking about how fucking stupid he is and how much I hate him. I'm going to make everyday of my life happy. (: If I see him in the hallways I'll just pretend that I don't even know him or even see him and that he doesn't exist in this world. I'm going to focus on school work. Hating someone is just too much work or why not just pretend that he never existed in your life and move on with life. Go with the flow.

And Happy Birthday Dad and Raymond Lam. even though Ray's birthday was yesterday according to the Hong Kong calender. Time zones haha. Fung Forever !

Feels like I have hope now. Did pretty well in my geography and math test. YAY. Life is happy if you want to make it happy. I should look at life at a more positive way. Physics test was okay too.

I was pretty happy this morning until this "guy" (not going to mention name) in my drafting and science class talked to me. He was like I'm going to ignore you. Like What the Fcuk. What's his problem. He needs to get a life. No offence. Every time something "bad happens" he blames it on me like seriously. Not my fault. He's mad at me for no reason well at least I don't know what the reason is. Before he sentence me he should at least tell me why. He really needs to get a life. I am so not going to let him ruin my day. I'm just not going to talk to him anymore. It's really pointless. He's not like the only friend I have in drafting.