was sending this to my sister haha

I AM BORED RIGHT NOW. I wonder what everyone is doing haha My sleeping pattern is getting so messed up. I'm scared that I won't be able to fix it for volunteering or before school starts [ which is real soon] haha wow I can't believe summer is almost over just like that. I look forward to a brand new school year. I hope I meet new people. Overall looking back to it, it was a really great summer. I had many unexpected events. It all feels like a dream. It feels so unreal. But I guess that sometimes having dreams is one step closer to reality.

I'm watching heartstrings episode 13 right now. It's almost ending. I might try and finish this series tonight XD I wanna start dream high tomorrow :D

FEBRUARY=THUG

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. Resend this in 5 min. and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match. ♥ [ got this off tumblr] haha

My day was pretty simple. Jessica came over and we biked to Mandy's. We played Sims there HAHAH!! And that's pretty much it. I just finished heartstrings episode 11! So cute <3 Makes me feel kinda of lonely haha.. I'm going to go watch a horror movie with sister now. HAHA Hope I'll be able to sleep later. It's raining outside too with thunder xD

pizza for dinner

unsure, scared, nervous, IDEK

Yesterday I went to polo park with Jeff and we watched 30 minutes or less. I mean it was fun and I really enjoyed it. I like being with him. He makes me happy. I like talking to him. But I don't know... :/ I mean a relationship? That seems too much for me... I mean I'm scared... all the commitment and stuff and feelings. My feelings always varies. It's like never stable. It kinda feels like I'm leading him on... UGH! I don't want that. I mean what I say to him like you're amazing and stuff. It's just that every time I'm with him I get this feeling. I want to not get too close to him. I don't want to hurt him because of my unsure feelings.. UGGH! LIKE I like being so close to him.. and I want him to hug me... BUT I don't know if I like him? Sometimes I wish I can control my actions or know what I want in life. My actions is contradicting my mind. But at those moments it just felt so right.. :/

WELL my dad was pretty fun! Went to tyndall with Jeff. We had some interesting conversations. FRICKEN MOSQUITOES!!! Sister, bro and I went to northgate and we watched zookeeper. we went to zellers and brought food. We sneak food into the theatres like a boss! (y)

Tough times have good endings

This morning didn't start off all that great. My mother woke me up early to go out for dim sum but my uncle didn't come pick us up until like 1 so yeah we were basically starving & hungry,,, and when we got there some people from Saskatchewan ( mom's friend) apparently was joining us.. Thanks mom for not telling us ahead of time. Anyway we didn't know when they were going to come so mom told us to go eat first and so we did. We were halfway through and then they came... AND WE HAD TO MOVE TO A BIGGER TABLE.. awkward.... But everything after that went well :D LOLOL my uncle poured water into shirley's cup but she wanted tea so he took my bowl & poured the water there. Shirley switched my bowl with the empty one beside her because we thought no one was using it but apparently it was hers LOLOL! And she put food in it, ate it & realized that it was wet LOLOLOL ! I couldn't stop laughing even though it was bad LOLOL! SO FUNNY!! and she showed us pictures of her trip. Her son is pretty hot... o_O... :D After that we went to grandma's for a bit and then we went to Portage place lool!! Mom's friend gave us 20 bucks!!! yay!!! I have money to go watch the movie tomorrow!! LOOL... I hate asking my parents for money but then again the guilt goes away...

The wet dumpling is the highlight of my day :DD

Random Burst of memories ...

Everything that happened between us still seems like a dream. It seemed almost unreal or too real. I still remember the first time you held my hand. I remember looking away and pretending to focus on something else. I still remember those feelings I get when you hug me. I still remember that one time we were at the library. When you looked at me and I looked away and you said “fine then look away”. Even now from time to time all these moments would still replay in my head. It’s so hard to forget... or maybe I just don’t want too... or can’t…. I still don’t know why I can’t look you in the eyes. Maybe it was because I was scared that I might like you but I did anyway. You meant so much to me. Did you know that? But those last few days before school ended you stopped talking to me. I couldn’t find joy in anything. I couldn't focus in school. It hurts so much. Did you know that? From time to time I still find myself waiting. I miss what we had but you didn’t. It’s okay because I’m moving on to a better life. I’ve gotten past those hard times. I’m not going down that path again. You gave me hope and you took it away in so little time. Being with you that entire semester made my life go up and down especially my feelings. When you’re in a good mood you would talk to me but when you’re in a bad mood you sometimes would just go offline not even giving me a chance to say goodbye. I would stay up at night just to wait for you. I stayed up at night making you a jar of stars. I could have done my homework or reading but I didn’t. I put you as my first priority but I know you probably didn’t put me first. I would lend you all my homework and assignments even if that means getting a late mark. But you know what? I didn’t mind. I wanted you to do well. I really did. In less than one month I’ll be seeing you again. It’s going to be like strangers but then again that not you ever say hi to me in the hallways anyway.

To be honest I don’t know why I’m writing this HAHAH It just randomly came to me this morning. It made me kind of depressed… But I’m over that now (y) 

Pizza Snack at Grandparents :D

Information / About Me

INFO 自我介紹

Name: Carmen Wang

Birthday: February2. 1994

Relationship Status: Single.

Interests & hobbies: Sing in the school choir, After school Cookers, Asian dramas, Blog, Travel, Shopping, Swimming, Playing music, Movies, Eating, Walking, Puzzles 

Music: Instrumentals. 

Volunteer: Museum & Children's Wish Foundation

Favourite Season: Autumn

Favourite Food: Anything that tastes good. I LOVE RICE AND ICE-CREAM  

Favourite Drink(s)- BUBBLE TEA (Taro and Green Apple), juice, cold water, hot chocolate, && ICED CAPP 

Favourite Movie: Japanese movie- Koizora 

Website: www.carmen-wang.tumblr.com 

Games: OMGPOP- carmenwang 

Favourite Stores: Garage, Aritzia, Hollister 

I'm Chinese 

LOOK AT THAT STRAWBERRY & BANANA! 

FORKS!

Today was a pretty good day (:

Almost pull an all-nighter with Jeff last night LOLOLOL!! I fail.... keep falling asleep :S heheheh! Finally got the chance to go to the forks with grandma today! Too bad it was like so hot... well to me LOL yup that's it!

Because I miss you [ Heartstrings] Jung Yong Hwa

I LOVE THIS SONG!! Because I miss you - Jung Yong Hwa

“You look down your nose at pennies and dimes, when you can’t even make change for this? Before you take offense, start by apologizing. If you can’t even bother to consider what the boy’s buying this for, why sell the product? It seems to me the quality of your service doesn’t amount to a dime’s worth. There’s no such thing as a dime-value person in this world. Discriminating among people is cowardly and pathetic”

—	Lee Yoong Sung (City Hunter)

I gotta learn how to say no and not feel bad about it. Like when people ask me to do something or lend them something or play a game I always seem to say yes even if I don't want to. I find it really hard to say no to like almost everything... Because I feel bad saying no. I really do.. *sigh..


My day was ohkay. I'm still really happy at the clothes I brought yesterday (: I think I should spend less. I should stop thinking of what I want and start appreciating at what I have. (: And so much for jogging today o_O ugh we planned to go jogging this morning at 8:30. I woke up at 8 and decided to sleep for another half hour but nooo I slept until 9:30. What a fail.. D: Sister went to the library with Daniel. Mom, bro and I went to Sobeys & Shoppers and then mommy treated us to Tim Hortons (:YUUP lolol :D It was nice.


I also started watching heartstrings today! It's so cute!!! Watched three episodes!!! =D I'm gonna live in the present and not the dreams.

What an interesting day!

I just finished watching city hunter!!! OMMMGGGG I can't believe that the prosecutor died!!! ): IT MADE ME SOOO SAD AND MAD!!! * drama moment here (:  UGGH!!! It should have been a good ending for him too!!! It was such a good drama. Made me laugh. made me smile, made me sad. It was intense. *sigh drama worth watching! :) I think I'm going to start heartstrings tomorrow :)

I also went shopping today!! spent like 75 dollars ): sad yet I'm happy ... Brought a shirt & hair tie at garage, cardigan at sirens and a hoodie at hollister..!! OMMG I still wanna buy but I'm down to only 7 bucks.. and I still gotta buy my friend a birthday gift soon.... :S MUST.STOP.SPENDING. I'm also going to folkrama this Saturday.. FFF POOR TO THE EXTREME and going to the forks next Saturday... :S OMGOMG!! today I saw my friend all the way back from grade 3 and she still remembers me. She asked me if I remember her and I was like "who the heck is that" IT WAS embarrassing LOLOL!! but as if she still remembers me LOLOL

My day is complete. Thank you City Hunter. I LOVE YOU LEE MIN HO!!! <333333

LOLOL got kicked off the computer last night o_O anyway my day yesterday was pretty boring. I stayed at home in the morning and waited for kitchen guy to come. I had to keep an eye on him -_-" Stove guys came and I had to sign the paper thingy to show that I received the stove LOL ... that was my day literally. I finished reading a walk to remember. The ending is soo sad ): *sigh When I was 17 my life was changed too but in many positive ways. When I was 17 I had many ups and downs. But I consider them life lessons and will never make them again.

I might go shopping today!! LOLOLOL HORRAY for shopping :) I still hope we go traveling but I don't think that's going to happen any more. But I'm not going to give up yet.

Watching City Hunter episode 17 right now LOL

Rainbow from yesterday ! my ipod camera sucks LOL

BUBBLE TEA! <3