RICEEEEE

Mandy's Soup

Kim's Sushi

love the salad

That was really good. I'm not really a fan of sushi but that I must say was pretty good. 

New Start

starting right now.

Its weird. It takes a lot to finally have the courage to admit something. I still don't think I have that courage yet. You can start over any time. Sometimes we need to be careful what we wish for.

Happy Birthday Mandy La :P you're old jkkk

Went driving with my mother today. ehhh Sometimes I drive like a boss and sometimes I drive like a loser and today I drive like a loser. Well anyway lets not dwell on this subject any more. Went to Sushi Gen for Mandy's party. It was pretty fun :P and the food was really good. I went to polo with Jeff first. He's a really cool guy. After most of us went to Mandy's house lol. Pretty good day I must say.

So now I shall go and review my chemistry. Happy Thanksgiving tomorrow x)

Picking food off the menu is soooo hard looool LMAO Idek what to pick... #scared to try new food lol :P 

p.s everrrythiinngg is sooo expensive. #needjob 

When you're 10 years older than your brother he can get quite annoying. :@ 

My fingers Hurt

from volunteering. It even hurts to type right now. DD: We had to get people into these thingys so that they can go on the tightrope and the trampoline thingy. Fingers hurt :'( Anyway it was awkward especially getting someone older than you into those thingys -_-" I gave up trying to make a conversation with them. When I introduce myself to them half of them say "huh" and I'm like -_-" yeaah... BOO (n) fingers hurt

Taking a break from chemistry right now and I'm going to check out the menu for Sushi Gen :) need to know what to order lol. haha My friend told me to just be crazy and order random things lol wow :P

Good job Mayanne for passing your road test. You motivated me to start driving again. Thank you :)

Always B++++++

Live life with a smile.

somehow this is not taking me away

I had a pretty interesting week so far. On Monday it was my friend's birthday party. We went to Asia City and I got Taro bubble tea. :) After that we went to her house. Her brother is sooo cutee hahahaha I left early.

On Tuesday we stayed after school for the after school cookers. Yay finally we joined something. =) we cooked Mexican food. So spicy lolololol

TODAY I HAD A MATH TEST :O

so yuup. that's it for now. pce

It pisses me off when people compare me to someone else or saying that I’m not doing this and I’m not doing that. A part of it hurts me but really it pisses me off like seriously fuck off. I know what I’m doing. Even if I’m not doing it doesn’t mean I don’t know. Like really… jheezz.. sometimes I wish people would just leave me alone. Ugh like really. Whatever… -_-“ 

Pssh whatever. It can't ruin my night because something made me smile. :) never fails. 8)

And I think I'm done English for the night. Long day tomorrow. Peace. 

Shakespeare - To be, or not to be: that is the question

:)

I feel :) all of a sudden. Weird. HYPERRRR

wow what the frick man..

I'm trying to have a nice conversation here and you.... I don't even know... like really. I already apologized  yesterday. I don't even know what I'm saying sorry for. Now I'm just fricken I don't even know what I'm feeling. Are things even that complicated? Feels like you're just making it complicated. Why can't we just have a nice conversation without it always turning out in a bad way?  Like really. I find it hard now to even talk to you. I don't even know why I'm trying. In case you don't know I am trying. But it feels like you're just pushing me away right now and it hurts. If that's what you want me to feel.. congratulations you're succeeding.

how do you know?

Okay last entry for the day. Been blogging so much today and to be honest it helps. Talking to a friend helps to. Had a great conversation with my friend haha. He's cool I'm glad I met him.

How do you know when you like someone? How do you know when you unlike someone? I don't know. My feelings well they are weird. I'm never certain of them.  Idk.. I mean I don't know why I'm getting so upset and bothered by this. It sucks. I sent him at least 20 messages hoping that he would reply. I know he won't reply. I wanted to try anyway. I don't want to give up. Its just not me. I treasure this friendship.  Meeting someone is fate. Choosing to leave is destiny. I like everyone I meet. Well most and I treasure every friendship with them because its fate that we met. Just think about it. I think the best way to maintain any relationship is to just be friends.

But now.
We're just strangers again. Two wrongs make a right. Maybe next time it's finally going to be right.

Sometimes

the only way to keep someone by your side is to just be their friend. This is what I learnt. You know.. I feel bad. I just lost a friend. I messed up. I can't even face him because it hurts. I'm just wondering what happened... Few hours ago we had fun during spare but then after school... I want to continue trying to fix this but it hurts being ignored. I don't like this outcome. This result is making me regret everything. Maybe if I wasn't so immature back then and made him confess to me it wouldn't have lead us to our first hangout. And maybe if I controlled my actions better things might not have gotten this far. Maybe its a tragic.

All mistakes are experience that we can learn from. I learnt it the hard way.  I swear.. Never again Actions speak more than words. Silence hurts.

I love Autumn. It's so beautiful.

I think by far autumn is the most beautiful season ever. To me it’s just so beautiful. The leaves changes colours and then fall to the ground. It gives me a heart-warming feeling and a sense of home. It feels nice. To me fall kind of represents life. It keeps changing every year. Its falls but it comes back again. We fall in life all the time. It’s how we get back up. Sometimes it doesn’t matter where you start but it’s where you end up. Today in English Tulner was talking about having a passion for something and putting your soul in it. I don’t know what I have a passion for. It’s hard to define who I am right now because I don’t really know what I want to be yet. It takes time you know. Like everything else. Must stay strong. There must be an exit for everything. If there isn’t how did it enter in the first place?

I like other seasons too but autumn is just gorgeous. I want to go for a walk right now. It’s nice. It really is. I just love autumn. I’m looking outside my window right now. 

Looks good x) YUM YUM YUM

Random: Cup Noodles LOL

I'm weak, It's true Cause I'm afraid to know the answer- [True]

Finally this day is over. Should I reply back? I don’t even know… What if he still doesn’t want to talk to me? What if he just randomly stops talking to me again? I don’t want that again. I feel so bad. That feeling… it hurts a lot. My day started off bad. We had this a/c in precal today and it was just bad. It was so bad that in our afternoon math class he made us do a redo for the morning one. I did better the second time so that made me felt a bit better. I actually signed an autograph for him today. I was going to give it to him after class but I lost my courage to. Why am I so awkward? He doesn’t want to talk to me any more but if I don’t give it now I probably won’t get the chance anymore. Who knows what’s going to happen in 20 years. I need to stay strong and just do it like dang…. I always have second thoughts about everything and its just screwing me over. Whenever I get a notification on my iPod for some reason I still think that’s it’s from him. Don’t you get it? He doesn’t want to talk to you anymore. He even said it. “Maybe it’d be best if we didn’t” in other words; let’s not talk anymore. It just felt so sudden… like everything else that has happened this year.