Few days ago

I like the fog 

my chicken bowl x)

Fairy Tale

2011 年 10 月 16 日  星期一   

I don't know. I'm so uggggggh sometimes... I got so disappointed because he didn't answer my question like really.. How pointless. I don't even know why I got so disappointed I mean it's just a damn question. I'm so immature sometimes. I really am. What to do now? I didn't leave him purposely after English today. I felt bad. He was still packing his stuff and I didn't want to look like a loser standing  so I decided to go wait outside. BUT THEN I saw Andrew outside and he started walking with me and I'm like ohhh..... I'm not MAD  really... I'm not. I admit I'm still a little disappointed OVER A QUESTION.. like really. What is wrong with me? 


I don't even know why he likes me in the first place anyway... I'm so  not even gonna lie.


Right now I'm at a point in my life where I'm deciding if I want to go to university outside of Manitoba. Right now I'm kind of leaning towards Carleton, Queens' or U of T. But I don't know I mean a part of me wants to apply and give it a try and a part of me wants to stay here. My family is here... I love the heck out of them even though my parents seriously annoy me to the extreme. But I don't know... I must take this into some serious consideration. Running out of time... 


Happiness isn't something that depends on our surroundings. Its something we make inside ourselves- Corrie Ten Boom

omg my legs hurt from sitting in the same position for 3 hours -_-"

I MUST GET JOBBBBB!! I WANNA GO SHOPPING D:

30 minutes later

WEEEH STILL DIDN'T START ON MY ENGLISH PARAGRAPH YET :'( WTTTH FRICKEN FORMALISM!

I'm glad that today is almost over. It was a long day especially volunteering from 2:00 to 5:00 DD: 3 hours straight. My fingers hurt again ): but I really wanna finish my English paragraph today. -__-" YAY finally got that jacket I wanted from garage. Cost me 40 bucks but worth it :)

I told you that you don't wanna talk to me today.. Am I not right? 


I like thunderstorms. 

SOMEONE HELP MEEE PLEASE :'(

2011 年 10 月 16 日  星期日 


It was so windy today! But sunny LOL! Today I am proud of myself. I actually made the effort and woke up early to go driving with my dad. I seriously suck at turns. ): WHY OH WHY SO WHY ?   I drove them to A&W for breakfast. FATTY When I got home I actually got some decent studying done for math. Lets just hope I don't blank out tomorrow!  


To go or not to go? hmmm I'm deciding if I want to go out this coming Friday. I have no homework for sure for pre-cal and chem BECAUSE I'M GONNA BE WRITING A FRICKEN TEST AND CUMULATIVE ON THE SAME DAY IN THE SAME MORNING. I honestly cannot get over it. -_-" ANYWAY back the Friday. The thing is... I only have 15 dollars left in my wallet.   And I feel bad asking my parents for money because they're willing to buy me a grad ring. I ADMIT the guilt does go away but still.. I probably annoy them half the time. 


Carleton ? hmmm... * in thought 

NEW CASE !

Brought a new case for my Ipod today LOL! I like because it covers the weird part of my screen protector. I'm not used to it yet though haha :P

University is so stressful. Right now I'm still deciding where I want to go. My chemistry teacher Mr.Carrington really motivates me in a way. Today he told us that he once had a student and she got 100% in his grade 11 and grade 12 chemistry class. When she took AP chem she got a 99%. When she got into university she was still able to maintain 100%. She got like 3 wrong on her test. She came back and told Carrington how bad she did. He told that she's doing a lot better than most people and this is what she said " I don't care about the people that did worse than me. I only care about the people that got higher marks than me because they are the people I'm going competing with". There are so many smart people out there. I mean if you don't pull yourself together its just hard. I never realized how hard it is to get into dentistry, medicine, law and or pharmacy. I'm thinking about these paths at the moment. Well maybe not law. Ugh I must work harder.

School is stressful. Period.

I think I like sushi again LOL

Got this off Tumblr haha 

Kiss the rain -Yiruma

I will learn this one day. I seriously will.

Today I finally went to a grad meeting.. Although it was kind of boring since he already told us in chemistry..


Anyway chemistry test ehhh. Wow last time we got 50 multiple choice questions and this time we got 60. hmmmm wonder how I did.  I was late for pre-cal again LOOOL ommmg Gotta love Mr.Parker. He's the best!! WUHAHAHHAHAAH He finally gave me his poster LOOL x))  English is so ehh right now.  We have to ( WELL WE DON'T HAVE TO) do this hugging scene well I have to do that scene in our play. UGGHH its so hard for me. I don't know why. I mean its just a hug but I don't know.. I just can't hug someone I don't have any feelings for. -_-"  After school I stayed and help clean out the courtyard. I'm a noob. -_-"  LOL I was using the shovel rake looking thingy and Mr. Shedden said I was tickling the grass... Embarrassing. Then it started to rain.  I should start gardening. =) We got free pizza and drinks after x)


Prank texting Jeff right now wuhahahahahahah I thought my name would show when I text. I guess not. Oh well its fun. Well it was fun.. HE DOESN'T KNOW ITS ME. HE MENTIONED LIKE EVERYONE EXCEPT ME. HOW MEAN. JERK. 


I shall go read my gym modules online now. Read my book Salem Falls and then sleep. Goodnight. 

When I'm mad or annoyed

I'm mad and annoyed at the whole world. Like seriously. Why is that? It's like once someone pisses me off everything everyone does after that just pisses me off. Why is that? It's like I'm mad at the whole world but really I'm just bothered by one person or thing. So dumb.

I find it hard to like me. As in like me like me. I don't know I mean I'm so ehh sometimes. I have to admit it because it's too true. What is with me sometimes? Gaaaah byee. Study chem & then sleep. Screw independent reading right now. -_-

So much to do and just not enough time

2011 年 10 月 12 日  星期三   

Like really! *sigh.  I wish I wrote my chemistry test today but my teacher didn't even come and now I'm stuck studying again tonight. I have to finish my book and write a monologue for English. I have to study for an accountability check tomorrow for pre-cal and check up some university info. There's just always so much to do and just never ending. 

It just isn't worth it any more. I really truly do see it now. You just never remember me. I'm tired of trying and waiting for something that's not going to happen. If it was meant to be chances are it would have been. So yeah.. Letting go and moving on.  Should give myself a chance and others around me .........

BUT BEFORE I GO

I was watching growing through life on tv while eating dinner and I came across this which I thought was quite meaningful

Time is like a diamond. It's precious. People that know how to use time well are wise people. Can we use the amount of time we have to achieve our goals and dreams? 

There was more but like yeahh I forgot lol.. 

 

I'm Thankful

• my family and health
• my house
• my friends
• food and drinks
• breathing
• having the chance to go to school
• my clothes
• things that I own 
• a computer

This list could go on forever because I am thankful for everything. Sometimes its the little things that count the most. I will change up my blog soon when I have time. It will look different. I think its time for some decent changes in terms of everything and I will try my best to update everyday. But its hard because of the amount of work load I get from school. WELL I have to go do some English now. 再見

Thanksgiving Dinner