“The course of true love never runs smooth” -Shakespeare  

To do list:

Things to do

• Check if my application to university is complete
• Hand in deposit for trip...
• Retake grad photos maybe
• book road test
• gym logs 
• look for a grad dress that is not expensive

needs motivation

I've got too much to do and too much that I want to do.

I'm finally done with provincials today!! I think I could have done better on it. Like my math cumulative... I made the stupidest mistakes ever. If I actually took the time to review I wouldn't have made those mistakes. It was a very similar question to our previous cumulative. The way I study is just looking over it and it's really not good enough. My English essay for example, I think it could have been more profound. He said my central idea is good but it's not developed. I'm so pissed at myself for not taking the time and working at it. SO DUMB! -_- I'm not going to make all these stupid mistakes on my math provincial and hopefully it will replace my cumulative mark. I will actually put effort into my essay for Tess. Even if I still do bad in the end at least I can say that I tried.

I seriously need to hand in my deposit for Chicago :S

I hate volunteering. It is such a drag and such a pain. I can't wait for it to be over. There is actually sweat and tears in these hours. Well maybe not tears but definitely sweat.

An excerpt of my story

I'm still working on it x] but here's a part of it XD

         I’m getting married today. The man I’m marrying? Well he is amazing. He is the man that gave me a new path when my old one ended. He is the man that brightens my world when it was at a point full of darkness. He is the man that opened a new door for me but my last one closed. He is the path that guides my way. I appreciate him for everything. For being there when I needed someone the most, for giving me a new sense of hope and for making my world a brighter place to live in. I’m happy waking up to his morning texts. I appreciate it every time he embraces me, or the warmth I get when he holds my hand or the warmness I feel when he plants a tender kiss on my lips. Two years ago something happened, something that changed my life forever. Something that made me appreciate everything and everyone that is around me. One day they will leave or you will leave them for death is unavoidable. So I treasure every moment with them and cherish the times we spend together. What happened two years ago that makes me who I am now? I remember it like it was only two months ago…

Writing my story. I just finished chapter one :] Time to study for math. :D

ENGLISH PROVINCIAL AND MATH CUMULATIVE THIS WEEK

OFFLINE FOR SOME TIME

KAY BYE

My day was average...

I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I don't want to think . #sigh

I had a pretty good shopping day. I loved everything I brought today. I used my garage gift card and got two cami's and a flannet plaid shirt which I love :] This made my day. Shopping never fails to make me happy and usually cheers me right up... Until other things of course.

I just want this month to end. So stressful... I need to think. Need to think logically though.

Kay Carmen... get your focus back together
Starting now.

WILL NOT OMGPOP TONIGHT

DINNNER

Breakfast

Yesterday...

My sister and I went to Portage place because she was looking for a gift for her friend. It was pretty fun. After that we went to dad's work to get food but he was talking to some dude so we ended up foodless ): how sad

Late night superstore run with family last night. Dad brought potato and "root" whatever that is. It was fun. Saw these cute teddy bears on sale :) I took pictures with them hehehe :]

Saw these at superstore last night :]

Looking at family albums with fam -memories

Yesterday my sister, my mom and I were looking at old pictures from our family albums :] #sigh the memories. We were looking at pictures to when we went to the beach and my daddy was wearing jeans at the beach...We were really young. We also saw pictures when my sister and I took pictures at these flower gardens and pictures of my kindergarten graduation at Chinese school. We were also looking back at photos from our China trip. The memories man... haha X] Can't believe so much time has passed by already and this June I am graduating from high school and beginning a new chapter of my life. I wonder how this chapter is going to be like

We also came across this photo of my grandma when she first came to Canada. She looked so young and was in her sixties. She's eighty something now. Seeing that photo my sister and I asked about our grandpa that passed away before we were born. No one ever told us about his death. They just told us that he got sick and passed away. We asked our mother and she said that he died from cancer... My mom never met him either. When my mother arrived in Canada he left already... I wish I met him...

Lunch of the day :]

SOUPPPP

I suck at planning things :P

Wow school soon... At least I'm somewhat finished one of my math assignments.

Well I had quite an interesting day. I thought he was going to be late this morning but he was on time :] teehehhehe :) We went to Toys R Us. I was going to buy my brother a smurf but NAHHH it was too expensive. After that we went to polo and shopped. Well he did haha. :] I didn't buy anything. Nothing really caught my eye.

After that we went to northgate and ate dinner at Asia City. :] #memories with him there haha :D I like it when he tells me stories or stuff about his past or his past relationship life. IDK haha it interests me :D It seems to me he had quite an interesting childhood.

And then we watched the movie immortals.

So yeah my day with him hehe...

That a lie which is half a truth is ever 

the blackest of lies;

That a lie which is all a lie may be met and fought

with outright;

But a lie which is part a truth is a
harder matter to fight;

-Lord Alfred Tennyson

The Grandmother 


Ever has it been that love knows not its own 
depth until the hour of separation. 


-Kahlil Gibran
The Prophet