Yesterday my parents were talking about the time when my grandma was in the hospital due to heart problems. I remember it so well. I don't want to though. I remember seeing her laying on the hospital bed. I couldn't stop my tears and I had to turn around from her because I don't want her to see me like this. After the operation and stuff my dad bought me and my sister an iced capp from Tim Horton's. I didn't want to drink it because it was from the hospital LOL. Kind of stupid now that I think about it. But now looking back at it, it is still a good memory to laugh about. And I'm so glad my family is healthy right now. I know that some point in my life I will have to face death in someway. Its all part of our story in our life.

Do you believe that when you were born your life is already made up for you? And the choices that you make and actions that you do are meant for you to do. I don't think anyone really knows the answer to these questions. But maybe its better that way. Life would suck if you know what is going to happen tomorrow. There will be no excitement.

Everyones life is just like a story in a book. Everything you do each day make up the pages to your story.We cant all control everything that happens in our life. Maybe our story isn't the way we want it to be. Not everyones story can have a happy ending. But that's just life and we all have to make the best out of it. Don't do things that you know you will regret. Life is in our hands. Treasure everyday, make it joyful and live life to the fullest. Because you never know when you will die. When you will reach the last page of your story.

Still missing Da Lung and Bao Chu. Hi my sweetheart was a really good drama. I recommend it to all drama fans if you haven't watched it. And if you haven't watch a drama before, Hi my sweetheart is a great drama to start with. I still need to find a good drama to watch over spring break. (:

斷了的弦- 周杰倫

斷了的弦- 周杰倫 Broken Strings- Jay Chou
Really nice song by Jay Chou. I will post the music video and lyric translations later on.

作詞：方文山　作曲：周杰倫　編曲：鍾興民

斷了的弦再怎麼連　我的感覺你已聽不見
你的轉變像斷掉的弦　再怎麼接音都不對　你的改變我能夠分辨

＊我沈默　你的話也不多　我們之間少了什麼　不說
　哎唷～微笑後表情終於有點難過(握著你的手)　問你決定了再走

　我突然釋懷的笑　笑聲盤旋半山腰
　隨風在飄搖啊搖　來到你的面前繞
　你淚水無聲的掉　說會記住我的好　我也彎起了嘴角笑

　你的美已經給了誰　追了又追我要不回

　我瞭解離開樹的葉　屬於地上的世界凋謝

　斷了的弦再彈一遍　我的世界你不在裏面
　我的指尖已經彈出繭　還是無法留你在我身邊

△斷了的弦再怎麼連　我的感覺你已聽不見
　你的轉變像斷掉的弦　再怎麼接音都不對　你的改變我能夠分辨

Repeat ＊～△

Also at polo park today, my sister saw this random guy and she said " omg that guy is hot" and then he turns around and she was like "omg never mind I take that back" ..... LOL I was laughing like crazy. And then she said "his back looks good." She also said "what happen to all the good looking guys today." LOLs

But I guess you cant really judge someone from their looks, I mean everyones opinion is different and everyone has different views. It all depends on how you look at it, whether if its positive or negative.

Your life is like a story, you write the pages to it.

Just got back from polo park. Didn't buy anything. Cousins over for dinner. I finally got my English poster done. Its not that great but at least its finish. I feel so tired today. Did homework in the morning with my sister. Listen to some music, went shopping and stop at Tim Horton's for iced capp. This is the life I want. A simple life. When family is laughing and joking and not yelling and screaming at each other. I wish everyday can be like this. I know its not possible though, but I will try my best to make everyday a great day. Just smile and theres nothing you cant over come.

Mental math and part 2 of math cumulative tomorrow. No matter what happens tomorrow during the cumulative I will try my best. Sometimes its not the results that are important but the process of learning. If you think you can, you can.

And today I also practice driving. Geez I suck so much. My brain isn't working well today. All the drivers were like giving me a stare. Drivers these days. They were once a student driver too !

Been doing homework the whole morning. I really suck at drawing. I have to make a poster for English. Good thing my sister is here to help. We always do homework together and help each other. But she helps me more. :P

Filling out passport info. Its so hard to fill out. Some info are so confusing. ! I'm so excited to go to Toronto. I hope it will be a fun trip but until then I have to work hard in school and stay in precal.

I don't know what to do with life. I need to get my life straight. And focus on school. And not on other things as much... I need to get back on track. Right now I'm not really living the life I really want or hope for. I need to make life the way I want it. The world that I want. I want changes, for the better. I am going to live the life that I want. I will live life to the fullest. When i woke up this morning and looked outside and saw the sunshine, I just realize that lately I forgot my goal and that is to make everyday a happy day. I know that I will face challenges and bitterness. But I need to remember this " just smile and there's nothing you cant overcome". Work hard Carmen.

人生是不是美的?
如果我們可以從一個美好的角度看每一件事, 人生會不會變得更快樂? 更開心?
但是如果要做可能會有艱難的......

"如果我們可以從不同角度看這個世界,可能生命會不同"

And that guy last week from Chinese school said HI to me again !! I am now 100% sure that he was saying hi to me last week. It kind of scares me though. But in a way it makes me smile as well. I wonder if hes going roller skating next week, I would like to meet him as a friend. And actually know his name, because its kind of awkward that hes saying all these Hi's to me and I don't even know his name.

POO incident

LOL today was a pretty original day? I have many things to say! Today at my grandma's my brother had a little accident. Well, I guess its kind of my fault too. I was taking a shower and I didn't know my brother needed to use the washroom. So when I went out my sister told me what happen. And so my grandma cleaned up the mess but me and my sister was still wondering why the smell was still there. Turns out that the "poo" was left in the sink while my grandma was cleaning it. hahahhaahaa.

I just went over my math cumulative corrections and I realize how many careless mistakes I made. GEEEZ I'm so stupid. ! I could have got a better mark. I combine the like terms wrong, forgot to make the slope perpendicular (so the rest of the question was wrong) and divided wrong, like wth. Some of the questions were so simple and I had no idea what I was doing. It was so simple. My brain wasn't working well that day. "sigh" Next time whether if its a cumulative exam or test even a quiz I need to calm down and think outside the box.

I need a new drama to watch. I really miss hi my sweetheart. ! It was such a cute and funny drama. Da lung ! (:

Got our cumulative back. Didn't do good ): But at least I pass. I wanted a pass anyways because I know I did bad. I didn't even really study for it. More or less because of that argument. There goes my 80%. I wont give up. There is still a part two. I will just try my best. Work hard. Aja Aja Fighting. ! My friend Lindy did good on it. And he says I'm the math genius. I think hes the real pro here.

In gym today we had to write a paragraph (in gym?) about who we are. That's such a hard topic. But it actually got me thinking. Who am I? I always do what my parents want me to do, and what they expect of me. I don't think I know who I really am. I always work hard to achieve what they expect. I'm not good at school. I suck. ! I'm not a studying person. No matter how hard I try it just wont stay in my mind, and I also have hard times focusing in class. They want me to go to university and stuff. It really gives me a lot of pressure. I want to tell me but I never did because I don't think they will understand. I don't think anyone really understands me. Even I don't. ....

Rainie Yang 雨爱

Rainie Yang 楊丞琳 Yu Ai 雨爱

One of my favorite songs from Hi my sweetheart. Actually I like the songs in that drama. Pretty good mv. But sad. I think if the guy was Show it would have been better :P but this guy is good also.

I'm finally done watching Hi my sweetheart. One of my favorite dramas.Great ending !! I don't know what to watch next. Maybe black and white, or momo love.

Math cumulative today totally brought down my mark. I just really want a pass. Last night sister and I got into an argument with parents. I couldn't even really study. I seriously cannot take my dads attitude anymore. Its really way pass my line.

In gym today we did some relay race. SO not fun, no offence. In biology today I thought back about a few things. I remember once in grade 8 and I was in English. I was sitting alone and this guy in my class just came and sat with me. I thought that was very nice of him. I didn't like him, I mean but I did have good feelings towards him. You can like a lot of people but you can only love one person. ( like da lung said in Hi my sweetheart.)

CUPCAKES. How I love cupcakes. I love the chocolate ones the most !

Gym class today was such torture. !! We had to run for 15 minutes straight. Well of course if you cant they are not gonna force you too. You just wont get a 5. I ran the whole 15 minutes. I'm so proud. I'm glad I put the effort into it and actually try to run the whole thing and didn't give up. I feel like I accomplished something today ! (:

This guy in my bio class (science and geo class last semester) got a hair cut. ! geeez he looks SO cute !! OMG ! I know this may sound kind of scary but every time I saw him in the hallway today, I cant keep myself from smiling. (: He good looking, well in my point of view. But then, yeah you know... umm I don't know. :P . I saw him after school today and he was waiting for his ride, I cant help but look at him. Geez I feel like a creep.

Math cumulative tomorrow. I hope I do well. God bless.

This is kind of old. But I still want to reblog this.