I feel so pathetic...

To do list for Chicago

• delete some photos from Ipod
• pack a comb and hair ties 
• lotion and hand sanitizer 
• tooth brush cup
• camera
• face wash cloth
• charger
• head phones
• English Novel

UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH

BRAIN DEAD BRAIN DEAD BRAIN DEAD BRAIN DEAD BRAIN DEAD BRAIN DEAD BRAIN DEAD BRAIN DEAD BRAIN DEAD BRAIN DEAD BRAIN DEAD BRAIN DEAD BRAIN DEAD 

I can't focus on my modest proposal :( I keep thinking when he's going to come back... and I check my Ipod every 10 minutes... :( #SADPANDA :'(

Couplets I wrote for English

You look absolutely stunning in your wedding gown.
That’s because I got it from the lost and found.

Not only are you beautiful, caring , and with a smart mind to think,
But do you wash your clothes? Because you stink.

Babe, you have the most beautiful eyes,
But only when you’re hidden and in disguise.

My cupcake, my muffin, my sweetheart,
Having dinner with you makes me want to fart. 

A far away goal; a far away dream

The dreams that I want to get to in life, will I ever really get to it? And … How will I feel when I do?

I need my dream career to get my dream wedding and my dream wedding to get my dream house so I can spend my life there with my love one. 

My dream house:
I became interested in housing and interior design when my cousin first came here from Venezuela. They were looking for houses and I went with them to many of them and that’s how I became interested. The more houses I went to the more ideas I got/want for my own future house. For the bedroom I want a big bed with curtains and a walk in closet. I also want one of those built in couches near the window; a great place for reading. For my kitchen I just want an island. I dream of a house with two floors with the garage connecting to the house. But most importantly I want my love one to be there. 

My dream wedding:
I want to have my future wedding at Shangri La, a five star hotel, somewhere in Canada. I became interested of wanting my future wedding to be there because I saw it on a commercial once. The background music was a piano piece entitled Canon. Everything about it catches my eye. Whether if it’s the decorations or food, all just seem so perfect to me, especially the photography. I remember in the background they had a running foundation. I also like the idea that it can be outside. I want to be with nature like that beautiful scenery when I sign the law documents and say “I do” and then kiss my husband. I want to throw the bouquet of flowers so someone can catch. After the day time part, the evening meal I want to have it at a Chinese restaurant and wear a Chinese Qui Pao. This is somewhat similar to my cousin’s wedding except instead of Shangri La his was at Assiniboine Park. 

My dream Wedding Dress:
I want to it be white and long and poofy. With simple designs like a flower or a light detailed pattern of some sort. I want one by Vera Wang but the designer is really minor if anything.   

All I need now is a dream career to make these come true… I don’t know I mean they all seem quite possible to achieve except maybe the wedding and wedding dress one. Like what if no one wants to marry me anymore by then. LOL… Yet maybe it’s a little too early to dream right now. I should wait until bed time. 

“Reach high, for stars lie hidden in your soul. Dream deep, for every dream precedes the goal.” Pamela Vaull Starr

The sunshine makes me happy ^_^

I miss you Jeff... <3 I love you so much.

I miss you...

An inspired quote for the night:

"If you wish to travel far and fast, travel light. Take off all your envies, jealousies, unforgiveness, selfishness, and fears" - Glenn Clark

Nicholas Teo- Simple Love 張棟樑 -其实幸福很简单

晚風吹　笛聲有多美　難得時間忽然變得好輕微
你說著　是三月的滋味　桂花香正隨著夜色飛

很在乎　月光多醒目　忘記有誰會在燈火闌珊處
千百回　用盡力氣去追　原來你早已用愛將我包圍

以為最終幸福是像結局般的遙遠　卻在不經意之間　它早已如此絢爛

其實幸福很簡單　就像你在我身邊
靜靜看著你的臉　也許了個心願　溫暖留在我心間

其實幸福很簡單　平安快樂到永遠
輕輕靠著你的肩　感受著溫暖　不需要任何諾言

很在乎　月光多醒目　忘記有誰會在燈火闌珊處
千百回　用盡力氣去追　原來你早已用愛將我包圍

以為最終幸福是像結局般的遙遠　卻在不經意之間　它早已如此絢爛
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其實幸福很簡單　就像你在我身邊
靜靜看著你的臉　也許了個心願　溫暖留在我心間

其實幸福很簡單　平安快樂到永遠
輕輕靠著你的肩　感受著溫暖　不需要任何諾言

知足是快樂也是最平凡　每一刻都有你值得去揮霍
我不要你承諾你的所有　只要我們都記得同一個幸福片段

其實幸福很簡單　就像你在我身邊
靜靜看著你的臉　許了個心願　溫暖留在我心間

其實幸福很簡單　平安快樂到永遠
輕輕靠著你的肩　感受著溫暖
不需要任何諾言　其實幸福就是這麼的簡單

A short 40 minutes with him <3 but I enjoyed every second of it 

林峰 – 愛不夠

收藏在眼眸　常徘徊左右　愛猜到沒有　
愉快玩笑後　能全然退後　你開心就夠

這種感覺太親厚　講一千句也不夠　
假使講了你聽到後　或會走　
這種戀愛太罕有　不須真正擁有　
成全　衷心祝福然後　就放手

放手　放開所有　彼此更自由　
放手　其實我絕非愛得不夠　
放手　豁出所有　還有這個好友　
已經　已經足夠

遙遠是宇宙　靜靜在背後　去看守就夠　

這種感覺太親厚　講一千句也不夠　
即使一剎有過衝動　挽你手　
這種戀愛太罕有　不須真正擁有　
成全　多捨不得仍然　是放手

放手　放開所有　彼此更自由　
放手　其實我絕非愛得不夠　
放手　豁出所有　還有這個好友　
已經　已經足夠　

放手　我的牽掛　找不到盡頭　
放手　期望你幸福甚麼都有
也許　愛很深厚　然而我早看得透　
放手　至可擁有

This song relates to how I feel right now... "let go, let go of everything. You will still have a friend and that is enough" 

When I get into university I swear I'm going to get a minor in English just because I fricken suck at it. Like yeah. And same with Chemistry. I'm just gonna take it for my faulty. BUT YEAH ENGLISH. OMFG.  

TO go list:

• Tempe Canal
• Papago Park
• Monterey Pier
• Woodward Park
• Giant Sequoia National Park

Three weeks with my brother- Nicholas Sparks & Micah Sparks

I recently finished this excellent memoir by Nicholas Sparks and Micah Sparks. At the beginning the book was kind of annoying for me to read because he talks about travelling to all these places whose name I cannot pronounce. But as I continue to read it, it just gets better and better and better. I absolutely love this memoir. Many parts made me teary. Sparks went through so many challenges and family loses throughout his entire life. It must suck one another the other. Every time he experiences something joyful in his life, a terrible event happens next. I mean if I were in that situation I wouldn’t know how to react. It must suck. As I read this book I realized that this will eventually happen to me as well. One day I will have a family of my own and leave behind the family I grew up with.  It kind of stings doesn’t it? I will have double responsibilities and expectations from both side and sometimes it does get hard to manage.

Some quotes from the memoir that I really find inspiring:

“I’d given it my best shot, but it wasn’t meant to be. And if I had to do it all over-and fail to reach my dream again-I would. When you chase a dream, you learn about yourself. You learn about the possibilities and limitations, and the value of hard work and persistence.”

“Dreams are always crushing when they don’t come true. But it’s the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, so attainable. You’re always close enough to hold, and it’s enough to break your heart.”

“It’s your life. No one ever promised that life would be fair. What you want and what you get are usually two entirely different things.” 

We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn’t diminish its value, because we are left with memories that we treasure to the rest of our lives.

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HAPPY ADVANCED B-DAY SIS!

FINALLY! I can finally give the gifts to sis!! they've been in my closest for like the longest time...

Went to our secret hiding place with Jeff. It was so creepy and windy like you can hear the wind blowing the bottles around. CREEPY. I love him so much :') I always smile when I see him. He always give me a warmness that fills up my entire heart and I have never felt that with anyone else before. He's so silly and so cute.. <3

Went to sushi cushi after to meet up with Daniel and Sis! We ordered the dynamite platter? (forgot what its call) and we couldn't finish it LOL They all came over to our house after and built the puzzle that baby brought her :')

GOT MY GRAD DRESS #happypanada

I like it more than the previous one that I wanted to buy :] I'm glad that I decided to wait and thank you mom. I also got shoes too :D Made my day :D One out of three goals completed being I go on the school trip to CHICAGO!!! I finally feel the excitement now :')

Today was also the last day volunteering for the circus exhibit. It was bittersweet but mostly sweet... I will miss working with the staff though. Most of them were friendly and very nice! I look forward to working with them in the science gallery if I decide to go there next.

NTS return photo albums to grandparents

I'm so full right now I want to barf....

My boyfriend is too cute...