Stayed up last night talking to friends & him

I love it when my friends tell me about their life stories. I feel really special that they trust me enough to tell me all that. I really like it when my friends and I have deep conversations. I get inspired by them. Last night I had a very good conversation with them. My friend Jeff told me about his past and school and all the things that he has been through. I can trust him easily for some reason. He seems like a brother to me. I’ve always wanted a brother. But in reality I’m older than him but that doesn’t matter.

Because of some deep conversations last night, I’ve decided to go into nursing after graduation. I originally wanted to become an oncologist and I still do. I didn’t give up on that but to me that dream seems somewhat impossible. It is possible but it just seems so far and distance from me. So I think I will go into nursing. If I can’t become an oncologist, the closest that I can get is to become a nurse in that field. And to me, if I actually can get that far I will be satisfied even if I’m not an oncologist. To be honest, I don’t have the confident to directly treating people. I can’t even treat myself well but it’s something that I want to do. Is either that I don’t start or start and finish it until the end no matter how hard and difficult it may be. It’s just not like me to start something and not finish through with it. For example, my swimming lessons, I’m already so far into it so why don’t I finish it. I spent so much time into it. I really dislike it but not finishing it makes me feel uneasy because of all the effort and time that I put into it from before. But I don’t want to think about that just yet. Right now, I want to focus and make my dreams come true.

great minds think alike ;D

my sister's birthday cake
I wanted to buy the exact same one on my birthday but I didn't because of mom wanted a different one so yea!
GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE!!

happy birthday sister! you're old!

Can’t believe my sister is 16 already! She is old. I remember being 16. It felt like yesterday. Time goes by so fast. I sure miss being young.

So it was just a typical Chinese school today. We talked about some Chinese holidays and such and played a game. THERE WERE PRIZES! CANDY and CHOCOLATE !!! IT was really fun LOL

I was going to treat my sister to a movie! LOL I kind of did but my grandma paid for us. WE bus to polo. We went shopping! LOL I brought a cardigan at forever 21. I love it there. ((: And then we watched Hop lol I love the movie! It’s so cute!!! LOL we were watching with little kids!!! GOOD day actually.

Honestly, my dad fucking pisses me off. Not even joking. GOSH! He wants everything like in a fast pace. Well just saying I like to take it slow! SO SHUT UP. Okay, so I just pick up the phone like 10 seconds late and he yells at me and says “why do you even have a phone for”? KAY, you know what? Keep that up and I’ll unplug that phone myself. WHAT NOW! JHEEZ! I’m already feeling bad because of that midterm. I bet he didn’t even know that I have a midterm today. YEAH sigh* I honestly hate it when people tell me what I should do or what I do be when I grow up. I really want to make my own decisions because I am the one living this life. Dear family, I don’t want to become a teacher when I grow up so stop telling me to become one because I won’t! I know I’m rude sometimes and I don’t want to be but sometimes you guys go way too far.

I don’t know why people think I’m nice and all that. Well I’m not. I’m actually a really rude person and I spaz a lot. I'm demanding and I can be a bitch. If you yell at me I WILL yell at you back. I am somewhat impatient and I tend to over think things. Sometimes I don’t even know why I even exist in this world. I’ve always wonder what happens to you after you die. Guess I won’t know until I actually die. But there are still a lot of things that I want to do. A LOT! I want to go to Australia and many different other places. I love my family and friends! I like school too (including English) even though it stresses me a lot. I feel very lucky having the chance to learn. I’m lucky in many different ways. But sometimes, luck and fate never seems to be on my side.

What a depressing day thanks to English Mid TERM! Sigh*

My day today was actually pretty boring to be honest and quite stressful too. I’m feeling so tried right now. I wish that I went to bed earlier last night but I don’t regret. I really don’t. If anything, I’d rather talk to him than sleep. At least physics class was interesting. We did a lab but our laptops didn’t work again!!! LOL for some reason its always us! But we had some very good conversations. They were asking me what my Chinese name was! LOL! :P I studied over the lunch hour and BAM I had to go write my exam :/ It was terrible. I had 5 minutes left and I didn’t even start my conclusion ): IM SO SAD! I studied tooo -___-

Pretty relaxing weekend ahead. YAYAY I'm so glad that is week is said and done with.

I think I'm losing my train of thought.

I'm feeling so stressed out right now because of that mid-term. For some other reason, I'm feeling somewhat uneasy right now. Sigh" Is it because of him? So disappearing for like three days we started talking again. So he told me what happened and I understand. But I don't understand him. This is messing my mind up. It takes a lot to understand someone but for some reason he's just so complicated. Can someone give me an answer???? This is once again bothering me. And I thought I was over it. I guess not. No offense, but he's such a JERK sometimes.

Let’s begin with yesterday. My day yesterday was pretty amazing actually! I had a great time at the Royal Career Symposium. We got free pens!!! The three sessions that we went to were nursing, interior design and medicine. I wanted to go into medicine before but after what I heard yesterday, it seems impossible for me. Me and my lazy habits aren’t really getting me anywhere. Currently, I’m thinking about going into nursing. I actually got a chance at that. If I can go back in time I would try and do things differently. Yea, that was basically my day yesterday! We went to portage place after (:

My day today was pretty interesting but boring at the same time. In physics class we had to do some smoking survey. That sure killed some time. I actually wish my physics teacher would actually teach and give us some notes. Oh well! At least it’s relaxing. Unlike CHEMISTRY!!!! Speaking of CHEMISTRY the test we had today WAS HORRIBLE!! AND I REPEAT HOBBIRLE. Well, it wasn’t HORRIBLE but like it was all on like define terms and such and not so much of the math. And there was a ton of review stuff. SCREW IT!! I’m going to die tomorrow as well!! WOOT WOOOTT ENGLISH MIDTERM!!!!! FML Well, I guess I should go and study for English? But how do you study for English…

my 120% in choir LOOOOOOOOOOL

HAHAH my friend drew this in physics class.

good memories.

I will miss this class when the semester ends

120% in choir (y) :D

Wow, I haven’t talked to him for three days in a row. I’m worried about him but I don’t know what to do. Okay, better question. What can I do? It seems like he doesn’t want me being nice to him. I offer to buy him something as a get well soon gift but he told me not to waste my money. Well, I understand. What I don’t understand is him. I think I should just give up. For the past week or so, I’ve been thinking a lot. I already did everything that I can do. Today was supposed to be our “personal private time” but of course, like I said before it didn't happen. Well, a lot of things that I plan to do usually don’t happen so to be honest I’m not surprised. If it DID happen, then I’m actually surprised. There is always next time I guess, but I’m not going to be the one asking him to go with me. It’s not like I want him to ask me or anything. Like, if something was meant to happen, it will happen eventually. But I don’t know. I think I should just give up. Perhaps it’s the best decision and the only decision. It’s not like I have a chance anyways. But the thing is people think we are “together”. I honestly don’t know how to respond to that when people ask me where he is and expecting me to know. I do know but it doesn’t mean anything. I care about him just like I care about anyone else. But right now, I just want to focus in school and hope that he gets well soon.

And so, I got my report card today! It wasn’t too bad I guess. Funny, how my chemistry and English marks are the same. Not too bad in physics and WOW I am surprised that I got 120% in choir lol! I think she made a typo but it looks pretty cool on my report card! HAHA I really hope the weather is nice out tomorrow! I have a field trip tomorrow and we are going to the career symposium. I’m actually excited to go (: I mean, you get free pens yo! And to be honest, I really need a break from school. If only we don’t have the chemistry test the day we get back and a midterm on Friday. 2 more suffering days to go and then weekend!

What a sad okayish day!

Well physics class was pretty relaxing like always. I had a spare and went to the caf. Chill at the caf at lunch with swag crew! ((: Chem class was relaxing today as well. She gave us a work period because her throat hurts. AS for English class, it was the class that ruined my ENTIRE DAY! So, our Macbeth quiz turned into a Macbeth QUOTES TEST !!!! -____-" OMMMMMMG I TOTALLLY FAILED THAT TEST!!! ))): SOOO SADDD !!! WTFFFFFF Kay, I'm done.

I want to forget about you but I can't. How can I just forget someone that has given me such sweet memories. Although they were short but they made me really happy. I just think that this is not going to work. Like, I told him how I felt about him. Well kind of. Well I said " I like you more than a friend" Okay, I admit, I totally forgot what I sent him that night. It was at like 1:30 am. He was offline and plus it was over msn. I'm pretty sure it sent.. But I'm kind of glad he didn't bring it back up but at the same time I'm not. Does he not get it?? Or was it just one sided all along? I don't even know anymore. sigh" I know when I told him, the timing was bad too. Not to mention it was like two days after his surgery. But honestly, if I didn't say it back then I probably would never again have that courage to ever do that again in my life. Jheeeez, carmen! What are you even doing?

Pretty good day today although I didn't do anything but it doesn't mean that its not a great day. right?

I finished reading my book today and I also got started on my new one! (:  I went over my chemistry homework and went ahead in physics a bit.  WEEEH I can't believe that spring break is over already. Second last spring break of high school! In one of my books that I read today that was a line that I thought it was quite meaningful. The line was " Life is in many passages" After we graduate from high school it was be the start of a new passage. Which I think is pretty true. After we graduate from high school, many things will be different. We will most likely meet new people. It will be time to get serious since we are college students. No more slacking off because this time, you are actually paying to go to school. Things will be different whether you choose to go to university/college or work. For me, I want to continue in school and fulfill my studies to the best of my ability. I think I will start right now. Time to get serious.

Finishing up a movie that I'm watching right now. It's a Korean movie called Windstruck. I've been meaning to watch this since last year but never got the chance to.

I'm not looking forward towards this week

why? This is why

Monday : I have a Macbeth quiz on Acts 4 and 5
Tuesday : Nothing BUT STILL!
Wednesday: Field Trip to Career Symposium. Kinda want to go and I kinda don't
Thursday: Chemistry Test -_________-"
Friday: English Mid Term -________________________-"

It's going to be a long week.
But hopefully I get to see you.

I went to superstore today! I haven't been there since forever! :DDDD FOOOOD! :DDDD We brought a trivia game for $5.00! Well I picked it and I didn't read it carefully. Apparently all the questions are based on the 80's. Awesome, we don't know any of the answers..... -_-"

I've been reading the entire day today and I'm almost done my book. (yyy) I really want to finish tonight..

I just found out that Mandy’s grandma passed away. I don’t know what to say. I’m feeling sorry for her losing someone you love. I’ve never faced this situation before so I don’t know how to react to it. When my close friend’s mother passed away I didn’t know how to react. Now thinking back to it, I didn’t even say anything to them to help them feel better. I feel so bad. ): Ever since I was born, my parents have been very protective of us. I don’t even know how to cook! We don’t do chores expect the laundry and that’s it basically. I really don’t know what to say or do in these kinds of situations. I hope she’ll feel better soon. The Mandy I know is pretty strong. Stay strong.

Sigh" He said he would have taken me out today if he was feeling well. I don’t want to go to school next week because he might not be there. Next week is going to be a long week. I have a midterm and chemistry test. But I’m going to live everyday accordingly. I think (I hope I stick to it this time) I have found my career. I want to become a physiotherapist when I grow up. I don’t think I can become a doctor because I just can’t force myself to actually study. I know I can but will I be able to handle it? I mean like facing life and death daily? I don’t know. I don’t even know how to react to this right now. But people change. As we grow up we become stronger because of experience. We start to make decisions. We begin to realize who in this world means a lot to us. Who and what is important.

fortune cookies lie to me

Yiruma - Kiss The Rain (Full Version)

I love this song so much. I can't even explain it in words. It makes me think a lot.

Top 20 places I want to visit in my life

1.Austraila , Sydney
2.Switzerland
3.New York
4.Japan
5.Korea
6.Finland
7.London
8.Paris
9.Vancouver, Victoria
10.Toronto, Ottawa
11.Taiwan
12.Hongkong, china
13.Chicago
14.Aruba
15.Calgary
16.Alberta
17.Las Vegas
18.California
19.Los Angeles
20.San Francisco

Some quotes I came up with

IF we could look at the world at a different angle, maybe life could be different

♥ 如果我們可以從不同角度看這個世界，可能生命會不同 ♥ -

♥ Don't let yesterdays failure give up today's hope ♥ -

Even though the time we spent together was short, and now we've gone our seperate ways, But I will always remember your smile and the time we spent each day.

My life is a story and I will write the pages to it

OTHER FAVORITE QUOTES
Just Smile and There's Nothing you can't overcome- Smiling Pasta :D 

If you think you can you can- Raymond Lam (tvb drama food for life) 

To be or not to be, that is the question- shakespeare

自我介紹

♥我希望我身附家人和朋友會永远開心, 幸福, 快樂和健康. ♥
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星座:水瓶座
戀愛狀況:單身
性格:思想開放
性取向:喜歡異性
吸煙習慣:從不吸煙
飲酒習慣:從不飲酒
教育程度:高中/文憑/證書
職業:學生
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