Life is full of desires.

When I hear somebody sigh, "Life is hard," I am always tempted to ask, "Compared to what?"- Sydney J. Harris

Life is full of desires. We want a LOT of things but in truth, do we really need it?? Take the time and actually think about it. I admit. I want to cell phone but in reality I don't need it. Like every day I go to and from school and I cant even use my cell in class. Then after school I'm usually home, I got the computer. So in truth, I don't need it but I WANT it. Wanting something can actually getting it is a totally different story. Can you afford it? Better question, can your PARENTS afford it? I know my parents cant. I don't want to put too much financial pressure on my parents. I want a cell phone but I don't want to work. I'm lazy! If I have to get a job ( which I don't really need to) I want a job that is less work but have a high salary. That's like impossible! LOLOL but anyhow, I have decided that I am going to get a job. I WANT A cell phone!

Brought my gift for secret Santa today!! I hope she likes it lol! I was going to get Jessica a teddy bear but my dad said that's too kiddish so I stuck to the idea of getting her the harry potter book. Hope I brought the right one D: I like chapters. I want to work there but I don't think they are hiring.

GAAAAH Precal test tomorrow. Going to study now. OMMG and TVB awards on tv later! TOO many distractions :/ GOOO RAYMOND LAM! FUNG FOREVER ! :D

OMG I am such a fail.

I'm scared. I'm always scare to do things. Even the most simplest things! LIKE OMGG This is such a bad habit of mine. Kay well but then again I have A LOT of bad habits. Life is tooo hard for me :/

Maybe that's why. I always think about doing things but I never take any action. Like literally never lol I should take action. If all I ever do is think about the things I want to do they will NEVER happen if I don't do anything. I want to go to University of Toronto so I should study even harder than I already am. I want an ipod and cellphone so maybe I should go get a job. I want to travel. I want to share with the world every moment of happiness that I encounter. I want to smile.

I think I will just do my precal tomorrow. I just cant do it now because the computer is on.

See what I mean?

"What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything?"- Vincent van Gogh

Chinese Test today was horrible LOL It was hard and why fill in the blanks? ): The sub teacher was really nice though. I like him (:  LOL He gave me one answer. Then we went and join the grade 12 class to play games. HAHAHA I gave up in the middle. I couldn't remember! hahah miss having class with the grade 12's. AWWH and next year I am going to miss having class with the grade 10's :P They make my Saturday's interesting! Went and visit grandparents lol They have us  cash :P


Just finish watching Beyond The Realm of Conscience episode 13 lol because I missed it last night. I watched the beginning of episode 14. It was SOOO intense. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA Time to do some precal homework.


My lips are getting better now. But its still so itchy. ALWAYS read carefully and I mean ALWAYS before you APPLY anything onto your face..! :/

一千年以后 - 林俊杰

一千年以后 - 林俊杰

心 跳乱了节奏 梦也不自由
爱 是个绝对承诺 不说 撑到一千年以后

放任无奈 淹没尘埃
我在废墟之中守着你走来 喔
我的泪光 承载不了 喔
所有一切你要的爱(所有一切你需要的爱)

因为在 一千年以后 世界早已没有我
无法深情挽着你的手 浅吻着你的额头
别等到 一千年以后 所有人都遗忘了我
那时红色黄昏的沙漠 能有谁
解开缠绕千年的寂寞 缠绕千年的寂寞

一千年以后 One thousand years later.

I actually wonder. How will this world be like, one thousand years later? Its not going to be the same as right now. That I know.
Where will I be? ......

Show Luo =
Good looking, talented, sings good. Like show is just amazing. He is the bomb! :)
I love this song. Watching this makes me miss Hot Shot! And Jerry of course. I love Jerry Yan tooo! :DD

Experience is how life catches up with us and teaches us to love and forgive each other.- Judy Collins

Bad day and good day. The bad thing about today is that I got this really bad rash on my face! D: It looks soooo bad like OMFG. I wanted to skip soooo bad today but nah, I wanted to go to precal and get some updates and reviews for our test on Monday. History test was just B.S just saying lol! My face still hurts. FMMML! What if I look like this for the rest of my life??? OMMMG I rather die! D:

Just got back like half an hour ago from polo with friends. We were going to go bowling too but apparently some loser rented the ENTIRE place. PSSH! Brought rice and bubble tea. I love bubble tea. But not a really good mixture with rice lol. Overall pretty awesome day. That is after school. OHHH AND I got 55/60 on my evolution take home test. ( well its take home lol) But yeah I'm so happy I got a good mark, Bio was never really my thing.

He can make me smile. I think I'm starting to like him. But I need some time to get my feelings sorted out completely. I don't want to make a mistake again and waste our time. But I think I AM actually starting to like him. I don't know what part of him that makes me feel attracted to him. Maybe it is his personality and the way he talks. He is always so sweet and willing to listen. I can tell him ALMOST everything. I just know he is someone to me. I'm scared to like him because I know he doesn't like me back the way I do. Sometimes it hurts to know that all the time I spend thinking about him, he doesn't even think of me. I'm starting to get lost. I hope I find my way out soon, before it gets too deep.

Chinese test tomorrow. OHyeaah I an going to fail LOOOL ! "I" Life is waay to hard for me.

I hate you

I hate you. I hate you so much. I WANT TO STAB YOU! KILL YOU AND MURDER YOU !!!!! I WANT TO RIP UP YOUR HOMEWORK AND BURN DOWN YOUR LOCKER !!!!!! I WANT TO DELETE YOU OFF MY FACEBOOK. I WANT TO DELETE YOU FROM MY LIFE!!! YOU HEAR ME?? YOU CREEEEP! UGHGHGHGHGHGGH

honestly stop sending me the wrong signals if your not going to talk to me. kay? jheez. your getting my hopes up and yet at the same time breaking it just like that? What are you thinking ? Like honestly! If you have no time for me then don't even talk to me in the first place kay. I always make time for you. Its so stupid. I give up. I hate that I have to make things up just to talk to you. Your just wasting my time. jheezz.

So apparently tomorrow is my grandma's birthday. These Chinese birthdays are so hard to keep track of. Why is my life like this?? Everything seems to be coming all at once. I cant keep up. AHHHHHH ! I made plans tomorrow to go bowling with my friends and OMG I don't even know anymore. I wish time can stop right at this moment. Like god man I need a break so bad. Otherwise I am going to die! :/ LIKE FUCK!. ...

A life worth living.

Honestly, stop yelling at me dad. I got feelings too you know. Just because you are pissed or not in a good mood doesn't mean you got the right to yell at me. Kay? So stop honestly. I don't hate you or anything and I know you love us a lot but your attitude. I'm sorry I just cannot take it. The way you are communicating with me makes me want to run away. I honestly hate it LIKE HONESTLY when people yell and me. AND PLEASE STOP CALLING ME STUPID because I am not! OKAY?? I'm just sayin. I'm not saying I'm smart or anything but I'm not dumb either. I have confident. I know what I am doing so please don't ever under estimate me and call me stupid because I am not. And that goes for everyone out there. Everyone is different. SO don't and I repeat don't expect too much from me but I will not go the way you want me to. Don't plan my life and tell me what to do. Don't judge me because I don't judge you. So please stop, stop forcing me. Its pressures me and makes me want to leave. If I do one day, don't blame me. Its good for all of us. I want to leave Winnipeg and not because of you guys. I want to go out and see the real world and find my stop of happiness. I want to live a life that is worth living. But doesn't everyone want to?

Winnipeg gave a lot of memories. Good and bad, happy and sad. But to be honest there is nothing really that makes Winnipeg worth staying for me. I'm graduating in two years and I still don't know what to do with my life. I want to go out and search. I want to find my dreams and fulfill them. I once thought I have found a reason to stay but not anymore. I want to see what the world really looks it. I want to know. I want to know where I will find you. Wherever you are. Whoever you are.

BEAST - '내 여자친구를 부탁해(Say No)' M/V

Im loving this song. :D
"Oh can’t u see I’m still lovin you "

okay, I came upon this on Tumblr and this guy is like so cute. Like OMG !!! :DDD isn't he just adorable? xDDDDDDD

you can give me many reasons to prove me wrong but I can give you one reason to prove me right and that reason is,




I don't have a reason. Because loving someone doesn't require a reason.
( something that just came to my mind. totally wish a guy would say this to me :P)

What a week. I'm so glad tomorrow is Friday :) and glow bowling with friends so I'm pretty excited for that. Got this stupid Chinese exam on Saturday and I'm like so not in the mood to study for it. In history today, Mr. Shedden told us that his dad passed away. R.I.P Mr. Shedden's dad. And he brought in his family bible which was actually pretty cool, His family tree is in it. He can trace back to his family members like over 100 years ago. He said that the bible is 146 years old which is like older than Canada. I am so going to miss history. Even though he picks on you.. But I must say, history was like one of the best classes ever in my high school life. Shedden did a really good job of making it interesting. He really did and I want him to know that. I am going to miss it. Only 1 month left ):

Well, going to actually try and study for the exam :P and history quiz tomorrow! :D

don't expect too much from me

What a concert last night. Jazz band sounded amazing, like usual. Actually, all the performances were great! And so we actually missed our last note on our last song :/ can't believe it ):

Today wasn't such a great day for me. Due to personal reasons, I don't feel like blogging this one. Maybe later, but not right now. I'm just not in the mood. So I did not find my bio labs ): Which is pretty sad and I had to asked Warnick for another copy. He was like "ohno that's not good". OMG and also we had this random fire drill at lunch and it was like freezing outside. -___-" wow story of my life. Shaw also came today. We are offically shaw now lol.
ps. I must say, youtube gotten faster LOL

Don't get your hopes up because it will lead to disappointment. No hope = no disappointment. Am I not right? don't expect too much from me because....
                                                I don't have much to give back in return.
                                                

Sisler Christmas Concert tonight

are you kidding me? I losted my biology labs and chapter review. Someone just kill me, please.


So, I losted my biology assignment!! Im sooo sad! Like omg I just want my labs back like honestly! ): I worked so hard on the labs and my pictures were so amazing!!!! Screw the chapter review. I didnt even start that lol
 
Sisler Christmas Concert tonight. Hope everything goes well. I swear I am too tall to be in the front row lol no offence.
 
Got to do some explaining tomorrow......... :/

ps. Got 85% on my photosynthesis test :) and got 90% on my math quiz so yeah that made me pretty happy xDDD

when you are sick, then you are sick

"One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: that word is love."- Sophocles

Drama performance today at Chinese school. Fung actually performed pretty well! LOOL he is like the only one that can make the audience laugh! :D

So I came down with a cold today. Maybe its because I haven't been sick for so long that I actually started crying lol :/ It sucks being sick. I mean really. I head was in pain but its all better now. My sister is sick now. "I" germs can spread so easily loool I never want to be sick again! But I know that's like impossible. LOOOOL So I worked on my biology take home test. ITs soooo long! LOL

And happy early birthday grandma. :)

coming down with a cold

ohmy
I think I am coming down with a cold. Right now, feeling super tired and sleepy :/ My body is sore tooo ):

My dad gets off work at 9pm tomorrow night so I got to stay at my grandma's  until then. I hope I feel better when tomorrow comes. I have a headache right now.

Goal tomorrow is to finish biology. Somewhat finish I guess. ugggh :/ I feel so crappy right now. So sad! OMMMMG and Chinese drama presentation tomorrow. I hope my voice gets better and hope I don't screw up. Like ohmy, its going to be embarrassing.

唐禹哲= 灰色河堤

OMG so sad, especially the ending when he says " I still choose to love you" What a heart breaker!! I guess this just shows that happiness came come and go just like that.

"Too Fast" - Wong Fu Productions

OMG that guy sure can laugh. LOL :P Totally made my day! :)

Relationships and Friendships

Some say friendship can last forever.
It can that is, if you have found true friends. Friends that will stay by your side and no matter what happens they will always support what you do. You can trust and share all your thoughts with them.

Some people think it is stupid to give up a relationship but friendship. " I don't want to hurt her/him." That is just an excuse. An excuse to lie to yourself. That you are actually afraid to open up to him. And at that time your friend tells you she likes him so you use that as an excuse and give up on him. Yes, actually it is kind of stupid. Are you actually going to see that friend for the rest of your life? Friendship may or may not be for life but happiness is. Its going to be with you whether you feel it or not. So to give up a relationship for friendship, is it really worth it? Unless that person is your true friend. The point is, don't lie to yourself. Go with your feelings. Open your heart and be true to yourself.

"This is the true joy of life, the being used up for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one."- George Bernard Shaw

My day went like this today
In precal we did a quiz and I think I did pretty well on it. :)) So I'm pretty proud of that. In accounting we had a sub. No offence but she is kinda creepy :/  My friend is writing his calculus exam today, well like right now. I really hope he does well. His exam starts at 6 his so hes been at it for like half an hour now. Good luck! Dress rehearsal today and it went okay. Jazz band sounds so good this year! :D My friend is in jazz band. My afternoon was bunk. Corrected biology assignment and got 20 point something out of 25. Not bad, I thought I did worst -_-" History test was quite a story. It was do dam long! Like holy crap. The last question man. I hope I did well on it!