graduation dinner for the night :)

Corsage ♥

will forever keep this memory 

Just finished reading Safe Haven by Nicholas Sparks and I really enjoyed it. It was a good book and I'm looking forward for the movie :D

Some quotes from the novel

I've have come to believe that in everyone's life, there's one undeniable moment of change, a set of circumstances that suddenly alters everything. 

Joy was as fleeting as a shooting star that crossed the evening sky, ready to blink out at any moment. 

Next on the list is The best of me also by Nicholas Sparks. I find his books so inspiring! Time to make another trip to chapters buwhahahhah :D in the mean time, time to focus on university for the month. No more lit until August :( or rather more lit time in August :) 

Got lost at the university of Manitoba campus. It was insanely huge >.<

Class of 2012

Gateway Brethren Church

The graduation ceremony was insanely long but insanely wonderful. It felt great yet I felt a sense of sadness singing in the grad choir because I will never be part of sisler’s choir ever again. The feeling was great. I also got an award. I was very nervous but I managed. The sensation was building up intensely inside me and I felt myself grabbing onto my graduation gown. At least I didn’t have to go up alone. Although it was very awkward standing there waiting in front of thousands of eyes. I felt happy that my family brought me flowers but to me their presence there was enough. My auntie also brought me some graduation flowers although I wasn’t home. The thought is what counts the most.

Photo-shoot

Yesterday was also the first time riding in a limo. It was cool! SWAG. We went to Assiniboine Park and the legislative building. It was fun. I enjoy taking pictures with this group of people although my feet were killing me. I am definitely not a heels person. The heat was also awful although it was manageable. 

Fairmont Hotel- The Dinner and Dance

graduation 2012

I still can't believe that I graduated yesterday and just two weeks ago I was still a student there struggling and preparing for final exams. I will miss everyone dearly. Everyone I met in high school was truly a bless and I’m glad that I met them. I couldn’t have asked for a better group of people to graduate than the group that graduated with me yesterday. The memories that I made at Sisler High will forever carry on with me and my life. I couldn’t have asked for a better high school. Looking at my diploma seems surreal and I can’t believe that four years have gone by already. I still remember the first day of high school and I will forever remember the last day. These days were the beginning and the end of a beautiful chapter of my life. I met long lasting friendships. It still feels like I’m going back there next year. I guess reality hasn’t hit me yet even though I graduated just yesterday. I can go on with this post forever because I truly cannot express the feelings that I’m feeling right now. It’s bittersweet. All I can say is thank you Sisler High School for these wonderful four years. It was truly amazing.    

CLASS OF 2012- Forever Love. 

Don't even know if I should go for it any more... #whack

Dear John Quotes

Finished reading Dear John by Nicholas Sparks and I really enjoyed it. Here are some really inspiring quotes  


If hers are stars in the nighttime sky, mine are the haunted empty spaces in between. 

Its the excitement between the tedious space, and it doesn't matter where it's directed. 

 Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand, and without them, any happiness is only temporary, because there's nothing to make it last.  

What mattered most was knowing that love was mine to give, without strings or expectations. 

Love should bring joy, it should grant a person peace, but here and now, it was only bringing pain. 

Love?

To my understanding that means pain, joy, laughter, and tears.

I wanted to say that you reply to her in the morning... I wanted to say it so badly... but I won't because these continuous arguments are getting very tiring. Very Very Very tiring. I think I'm just gonna stop from now on.

I thought I was done with his blog because you used my posts against me before in previous agreements. But today I realized how lonely I am and that my life is an endless cycle that I will always come back here. Always come back here...

Instead of recording endless moments of my life, this blog has become a good friend of mine who I can always vent to, who I can always turn to during the deepest, lowest moments 

You're the first person I told when I received my university package today and like so many other things I've said to you before it gets disregarded. #usedtoit I was so happy and enthusiastic when I got it this morning... I've been looking at the package and I have narrowed my courses down. I'm looking at taking 4 class per semester and then 3 in the spring in order to get the 30 credits for the first year. I sense some handwork but good, it will keep my focus. As of now I think I'm going to go into pre-optometry. The courses that I take for this faculty are also courses that fall into my other interested facilities; density, medicine, and science. Also those classes can also help me major in biochemistry and microbiology. What interests me is that after three years of getting my degree here I can apply to The school of Optometry at Waterloo. Well I mean I have to if I want to get a career. But its great. Just three more years. Hang tight Carmen. At this very moment I feel like nothing is really the way it is... I wouldn't say not worth staying because there will always be something/ someone here that I want to stay for but the question is; does that person want me to stay? or leaving is the best for both of us... 

You know a spark is about to die when the effect no longer longs you.  I feel that over the course of the time our love has strengthen but our communication has somewhat been lost along the way. The vows that we once perched each other has simply become a statement to heal the wounds that has been opened. Trust is lost along the way. I thought that our little exchange could be a tie that we can both have in common. But I guess not. Slowly each and every day, those ties are beginning to untie itself. And soon we would be two separate strings again each running parallel, never encountering again.  I feel as though you even lack the effort to send me a smiley face. Like you don't even want to talk. And lately I feel as though you don't even take the time to read what I send you. I feel as though you even lack the effort to sometimes even send me a good morning message like you once did. Even though you aren't actually up in the morning when sending it but the thought of it makes me so happy. The appreciation and thought makes me happy knowing that you think of me before you go to sleep because I do. I want to feel that spark again that I felt last year. The easy going conversations that we used to have. But I know that will never happen again. Time does that to a relationship...

 whiteshell provincial park

maybe I should check this place out sometime over summer. After all I've got nothing better else to do.

You know? haha yeah I don't know any more. Don't know what to think, don't know what to feel haha

Maybe... so.

That Love Comes.

can't do anything right today... just broke my cup ..

Home alone right now. I was going to go to the library today to study for my psychology exam but now since they're all out I have a good decent 2 hours to study.

Give it some time and maybe everything will fall into place. Eventually..

It's funny cause I'm still waiting although I don't know what I'm waiting for anymore...

I actually enjoy this silence.

Woke up to a dream

In my dream I woke up, looked at my iPod and saw good morning message from him. It was like this "good morning :) :) <3" and then I woke up again and realized that it was only just a dream. I checked my iPod and he didn't even bother replying to my last message. I fell asleep last night waiting.

I would much rather get straight up answers instead of a pointless emotion saying "peace". I thought it was really immature. I would rather you tell me straight up what you want instead of saying "go then" or some stupid peace sign. It's not up to me if I want to go or not because of course I want to stay with you forever. I will stay only if you want ME to. I'm not going to beg to stay when I'm no longer welcome. I have dignity and pride. If someone wants me to go I will go. I would rather get a straight up honest answer of what you want instead of some fuzzy one. 

I know that you probably won't message me today. I normally would regardless but... I don't know what to say anymore. I thought that as long as we love each other we can overcome any differences, personalities,  arguments, and obstacles. Is love not strong enough anymore? I love you and I know that you love me and...? It's funny how so much can happen in such short amount of time. Just ten days ago you asked me to be your grad date. Now, I don't know if I'll be even having one. Maybe this was a dream to begin with. A sweet dream, heart warming. But following every good dream is a reality waiting for you. 

I know I'm at fault too as how our relationship is turning it out to be. If I could go back in time I wish I could have done things differently or reacted to things differently. But I know I can't. I don't have a time machine. The question that has left me hanging since last night is what now?

Without a sound. Without a word.

I have went back and deleted most of the negative posts that I once felt. I only want to be left with the good ones because those are the ones that I want to take with me. 

If life takes us far, will we cross the same path again?

When words fail to speak, silence takes it's place.

The perfect day

June 01/12 Friday.

It was our four months :)

It was such a pleasant day today. First he was early at school :) and we met up at the library. I then went to do a book quiz and he took the chance and left me a rose in accounting. hehe I thought that was the only one but when I went to psychology class I received another one. When I walked in I was :O!! He went to the wash room during accounting and planned this. :D And then during lunch hour I went to guidance. He took the chance to give a rose to his friend so she could leave it for me in physics. I went to English and saw another one and I was 100% there would be one in physics. He is sooo cheesy. What really surprised me the most today was after school. I was so bored in physics.
When the bell rang after school I heard someone said his name and I was really happy because he's there waiting for me:) He was holding a dozen roses waiting for me and he asked me to be his grad date. HEHEHEHHEHEEHEHHE that was the most cheesy-est moment of my life!!! It worked out so perfectly. <3 We went to A & W to eat and chilled at his place after. <3

Today was the perfect day,

Happy four months Cheesecake :) I love you

You mean everything to me <3