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Friday, December 10, 2010

"Too Fast" - Wong Fu Productions

OMG that guy sure can laugh. LOL :P Totally made my day! :)

Relationships and Friendships

Some say friendship can last forever.
It can that is, if you have found true friends. Friends that will stay by your side and no matter what happens they will always support what you do. You can trust and share all your thoughts with them.

Some people think it is stupid to give up a relationship but friendship. " I don't want to hurt her/him." That is just an excuse. An excuse to lie to yourself. That you are actually afraid to open up to him. And at that time your friend tells you she likes him so you use that as an excuse and give up on him. Yes, actually it is kind of stupid. Are you actually going to see that friend for the rest of your life? Friendship may or may not be for life but happiness is. Its going to be with you whether you feel it or not. So to give up a relationship for friendship, is it really worth it? Unless that person is your true friend. The point is, don't lie to yourself. Go with your feelings. Open your heart and be true to yourself.
"This is the true joy of life, the being used up for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one."- George Bernard Shaw

My day went like this today
In precal we did a quiz and I think I did pretty well on it. :)) So I'm pretty proud of that. In accounting we had a sub. No offence but she is kinda creepy :/  My friend is writing his calculus exam today, well like right now. I really hope he does well. His exam starts at 6 his so hes been at it for like half an hour now. Good luck! Dress rehearsal today and it went okay. Jazz band sounds so good this year! :D My friend is in jazz band. My afternoon was bunk. Corrected biology assignment and got 20 point something out of 25. Not bad, I thought I did worst -_-" History test was quite a story. It was do dam long! Like holy crap. The last question man. I hope I did well on it!

Thursday, December 9, 2010

happiness is the key element in life

Honestly,
Don't you just hate it how you start to fall for guys that you know you shouldn't. Either they already have someone they like or they already have a girlfriend. But the more you talk to him the more deeper it goes. You don't want him to talk to you but when he actually doesn't you start to feel depressed. -_-" When he does talk to you, you feel happy but at the same time hurt. Because you know that one day he is going to leave you and that one day he is just going to be a chapter of your story and not the ending. You know that and he knows that too. But what you don't know is the future. If you guys were meant to be then no matter how long and how far you will still end up with him if he is your fate. Instead of waiting for nothing why not just move on with life? If he is meant to be with you then he will. Its just a matter of time. Time is a element in relationships. "Doing nothing is actually doing something" -Shedden. So just do nothing and live everyday to the best of your ability. Fate will bring you back to him no matter what happens. Just wait.

Also I saw him in the halls today and guess what, I felt nothing! Like nothing at all. At that moment I know that I can move on. And plus I got other things to think about. I guess he is just a short chapter in my life. Well time to do my math homework. History test and math quiz tomorrow :/  I hope I do well

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

happy birthday Raymond Lam ♥♥♥♥♥

Sometimes if you want to forget someone, you actually keep thinking of them more.

Sometimes I wish I can start my life over and erase the memories I want to forget. But I know I can't. No one can. Unless they bang their head into something and forgets everything. Now that is a different story. The more I don't want to see him, the more I bump into him in the hallways. And everything I bump into him in the hallways he is always either A: waiting for her or B: Actually with her... I swear, I got the WORST timing in the world.

Decent day today. Somewhat got my work done. I am not looking forward for Friday. Why? 1: math quiz 2: History TEST 3: biology assignment due -_-" ITs just not going to be a good day...... OMG

And happy birthday to Raymond Lam!! FUNG forever!!! :))))

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

"Love asks no return. " Hot Shot

Oh biology, how I hate you. -_-" I'm working on my biology assignment right now and it is killing me! Its hard ): This morning brought hot chocolate! :)) Hmm, I'm wondering what I should get Jessica for secret Santa!

Is it just me? Or do I have like the worst timing ever??? Drama much, I saw him today at lunch well after lunch and I saw him kiss her. At that moment I knew everything is over. It really is and I give up. I was the one to give up first so I'm not going to fight for it anymore and plus both of them are my friends. I want them to be happy even if I'm not. But I will be. I'm moving up. My life doesn't revolve around him. So yeah, ....... I guess you can say I'm pretty stupid. " If you like him why didn't you tell him earlier, and now he has a girlfriend." Because at that time my other friend told me she likes him. Well to me now, it doesn't really matter anymore. There is no take two in life. No matter how deep I fall I will get back up. I will. I don't give up that easily. And I wont. I guess this is not the stop. I will continue to wait. Until I get to my stop of happiness. Until then I will continue living my life and living it to the fullest. Even if it doesn't include him.

"Love asks no return. " Hot Shot
OMG this is so cute! I got this off Tumblr :P

Monday, December 6, 2010

Whats up guys?


I haven't blog in a while. Gotta keep up my blogging.
Every year my Christmas wish and birthday wish is the same. And that wish is to find my prince charming. I rather be in love once even though it might be painful then to be in a relationship that isn't really love. I wonder when will I find him? Is he already in my world? I don't know why but I always like guys that I know its going to be impossible. I just don't know why. It actually hurts :/ I mean really it does. You see him in the hallways and yeah.... you know. You want him to be happy and feel happy for him but in reality you are not happy. I'm giving up. My life, I want it to be a good story. I want to go out of Winnipeg and see the real world. I want to be blessed. And if one day I do find you, is when I will stop because I have already arrival at my stop of happiness. And at that stop of happiness, is you.


When will I arrival there? Lets let time do the magic.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

I've been thinking....

I've been thinking,
What if I said yes back then instead of no
What would we be now?

I've been wondering,
I'd always see you after school and you seem so happy
Is it because you have given up and moved on?

I've been saying to myself
I will not regret the choices that I made
Because it was once what I wanted

But Now
I've been hoping
that you will talk to me again
and message me like you used to when I'm online

I've been wishing
that you will give me another chance
one more chance to make that choice again

I've been praying
praying that I can go back in time
and remake my decisions

I just want to tell you
                     that I've
                            have been thinking about you.   
                                                                                   - carmenwang

Friday, December 3, 2010

Good day in the morning
Bad day in the afternoon and evening .. -_-" and right now, my stomach hurts :/

So in the morning:
OMG I did not get 61% I got 61/65 on my accounting test LOLOL Jhhez! I scared myself for nothing :P but my mark went down like one percent! Got my precal test back today and I didn't do that well on it. Got 83% but still, it made my day :D

In the afternoon:
My sister had a lock down at the bowling place she went for gym and missed her last two period class. Then we missed our mom's ride! she THOUGHT we left..... and we didn't ( clearly) And I totally failed that history quiz -_-"

Evening:
MY BROTHER TOOK MY STICKY NOTES from my room. LIKE WHAT THE HELL. Kay, its not the sticky notes. I just hate it when people take my stuff without asking. I kinda freak out on him, but still! ARRRRRR

Finally done my blog entry! My stomach kept hurting

Thursday, December 2, 2010

I haven't blog for a while. Yesterday I got my biology test back and I got 85%. Warnick put excellent on it! That made my day! I never got an excellent on my biology test before :))))))))


So today I found out that I got 61% on my accounting test -_-"

I got to go sleep now! I don't wanna get in trouble -_-" blog more tomorrow! and I wish also post my Christmas wish list ;)

Sunday, November 28, 2010

方力申、鄧麗欣 好好戀愛 LYRICS. This song describles how Im feeling right now

Alex:共你相識三千天 我沒名無姓
   慶幸也與你逛過 那一段旅程
   曾是日夜期待你 施捨一點同情
   我對你是固執 做夢或太熱情
Stephy:在世上 是你始終不肯退後遺忘我 感激你心意
    但情人比 知己分開更易 怕我愛上你壞了事

Alex:完了吧 如無意外 從今開始該好好戀愛
   放下從前一段感情 才能追求將來 你就似沒存在
Stephy:完了吧 然而你不在 情況未像幻想般變改
    告別從前總是不易 原來假如只得我在
    我竟未能覓尋下一位摯愛

Alex:舊訊息應該刪走 再沒留憑證
   我共你去到最遠 也只是友情
   如現實是場玩笑 一早清楚內情
   過去是勇敢 或是未肯適應
Stephy:是我笨 大概必須先經錯誤才能會 分清我心意
    共行成長 數不清的故事
    我已愛上你壞了事 (Alex:我愛你你扮作不知)

Alex:完了吧 如無意外 (Stephy:早該散開 縱有感慨)
   從今開始該好好戀愛 (Stephy:為何我寂寞不來)
Alex:放下從前一段感情 才能追求將來
   你就似沒存在 (Stephy:當做我沒存在)

Stephy:完了吧 仍能撐起來 (Alex:應該放開 沒有感慨)
    前進便讓自尊心放開 (Alex:期望你能尋覓愛)
Stephy:告別從前總是不易 然而假如不止你在 (Alex:只得我在)
Stephy:你可願仍逗留在這愛海 (Alex:再不願盲目留在這愛海)

Alex:我與你 大概始終不能相愛
Stephy:可否不離開 講出你的感慨
    你用心戀愛 (Alex:我用心戀愛)
 合唱:下段道路定更精彩

Alex:完了吧 如無意外 曾失戀的都必須戀愛
Stephy:悔恨從前隱瞞感情 常常猜疑將來
    我就似沒存在 (Alex:你就似沒存在)
  
合唱:完了吧 仍能撐起來 前進便讓自尊心放開
Stephy:告別從前總是不易 然而假如不止你在
(Alex:告別從前總是不易 然而假如只得我在)

Stephy:你可願留下來盼一位摯愛 (Alex:會否願留下來盼一位摯愛)
“How is it possible that one rainfall can make the shadow and the memories be washed away? And why would you agree to go out with someone who has another person’s shadow inside?”- Yuan Yi / Devil Beside You

yet another day

I just read my friend's tumblr ( by accident) It seems like she is not all that confident in that relationship. It seems like she is having a good time with him and usually with her at school she is a very outgoing person. I don't know anymore. I mean, I don't how how I should react. I'm confused. Both of them are my friends and I want them both to be happy. I... don't want to think about it anymore. Putting it aside. I must focus. Precal and accounting test on Wednesday.

Went shopping today and brought a new TNA hoodie! :) I was going to pay for it but I realized that I only have $70.00 and it was $84.00 -_-" So yeah, w/e its my Christmas gift now! In the morning, I clean up my room again. I totally cleaned it this time.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

I want a Hippopotamus for Christmas

I want a Hippopotamus for Christmas ...
LOL this song is like stuck in my mind LOOOL AWWH I love christmas! :)

At chinese school today we talked about our drama. Teacher made up a new one. Me, shirley and winnie have like the most lines! LIKE OMG LOl I miss last year when I only had like 4 lines LOLLOLOLOL

My biology assignment is like right in front of me. I should do it.

Excited for tommow! Going shopping.
I want a Hippopotamus for Christmas ...

Friday, November 26, 2010

niagara falls! ♥

July 7 2010 :D
LOL the water is dirty :P
                                          
niagara falls! ♥
I miss Toronto
Credits to Shirley Wang

                                                                                         
Look at my pro photography ;)
LOL it looks like the kool aid guy
Taken on Sunday, Novmber 22, my uncle's birthday
It was an awesome night :D

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Had a pretty good math class. We talked about polygons :D uggh! there's so many terms! But we had a pretty interesting conversation out of it. Lunch with friends today :) In history we watch this video about America. OMG I cant believe Canadian Tire is AMERICAN! D: Why is it call Canadian Tire then?? -_-" In biology worked on photosynthesis with Jc. Well we mostly talked :P I copied some of his answers. OMG cant believe he has such a good mark in biology. Actually I can. I wish I had that mark.

Had to bus after school today and it was horrible. And I mean HORRIBLE! Like OMG man. I cant even describe how bad it was. I swear I am going to save up and buy myself a car ( it is going to be hard)

I was just on the garage website. OMG they have so many new hoodies and sweaters! And hats! OMG it looks so nice! I wanna buy it!!! But I'm like so poor right now. Got to wait for Christmas ):

只要你還記得 - 小煜

那些年裡還有沒有記得

你說我們會走散了歡樂
這些年我知道你還留著
回憶在身後哼唱著的歌

*我把你寄來的信夾著曾經
留在了胸口我卻賞識不盡
我懷著所有紀念不肯忘記
才讓溜掉的你 依然清晰

#只要你還記得 我們都懂了
太多的傷痛會讓人變深刻
恨若走幹淨了 愛會留下來的
而你爲何連做朋友都舍不得
只要你還記得 我們都懂了
愛什麼讓我哽噎唱不出了
原諒是傷人的 我能聽到你哭了
愛是一個抓不住的選擇 *#

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Ferris Wheel

To me, a Ferris Wheel is a symbol of happiness. Being able to ride the Ferris wheel with the ones you love and being able to look down when you are all the way up gives me a sense of happiness. When you look down, you know that there are friends and family waiting for you. And when you are all the way up, you have your love one right beside you. The person that you can always depend on.
Today was a better day than yesterday :) I kind of get circles now -_-" uggh I hate it still! So many things that you got to remember! Too many terms, I rather do calculations... Like no offence, but when are we ever going to use properties of circles in our life? Like never!! HAHA but my friend said you can use it "to calculate how to cut your share of the pizza." HAHA I actually LOL at that :P So in history today we had a guess speaker. It was a 200 years old loyalist! ( it was actually Mr.Shedden :P) haha I like the way he teaches. Some teacher lacks it! But I sill hate it when he picks on me! ):

What a snowy day after school! It was beautiful at the same time. Like there was fog!!! awwh wish I had a phone, I could have taken a picture of it! :)