Pretty awesome day today.

Chinese school today we talked about Chinese new year! LOL hope we do something special this year but I don't know! Our garage door is broken and needs to be fix as soon as possible.

Me and sister went to library today! Actually got some studying done. Maybe its because there's no Internet connection there :P We went went to Portage and got tacobell. We also brought Iced Capp and Sushi!! YUUUM the sushi was SO good! :PPPPP

I was really disappointed this morning.

Why? Someone promised me to go to class today but ended up not going and KAY I SAW HIM in the hallway! -__-" Its our last class together. Forever. Honestly, I try way too hard. I give up. I don't give a shit anymore. BYE

I actually started my biology review and somewhat accomplished something. I'm pretty proud of that. :) Going to study at the library tomorrow with sister. (sushi and Iced capp) Good time to get some work done and get caught up. I need to do well on finals. Gotta focus and not think about random shit.

“If we cheat, we’ll be losing to ourselves.”- Tang Men / Miss No Good

I want to go somewhere in life
                                                  But I don't know where I want to go.
I mean, there are just so many paths out there. I want to go to University of Toronto but is it the place for me though? I mean, I really like the Asian malls there and bubble tea is basically everywhere. But I'm scared. What if I made the wrong choice. What if everything turns out not the way I want it to be. Every time I look out the window I would think, " wow I'm 16 already, I wonder how my life would be like in 10 year, 20 years and even 30 years." Time goes by so fast that sometimes you don't even realize it until one day you have a spare second and look out the window. I'm actually really scared. I'm going to miss my history teacher, Mr. Shedden. I loved his class. Its the class that I can usually count on to find laughter in. I still remember the first day of his class up until the last day which is today. So much have happened in both positive and negative ways. Our topics expand not just from history but also into biology. He once said that we should find a purpose in life and be the best us that we can be. I'm living without a purpose. Its sad. All I know is that I want to get into university because my parents want me to but I don't even know where I'm heading for for university! I wish I can find my purpose soon. I don't even know what I'm fighting for and Mr.Shedden made me realized that. I'm never gonna forget him, he's one of the best teachers that have ever taught me. He made history interesting for me and I really want to thank him for that. I can't believed that its ending already. Semester one felt like dream.

I'm finally done my history essay. YAY so tired. My mark in history went up by 2% :)) I got 82% now LOLOLOL

Been going over my corrections for math and OMG I'M MAD ! Its so depressing seeing all those careless mistakes. It honestly makes me sad. ): I wish I studied even harder!! Well, I'm going to sleep now. Probably wont blog until final exams are over. Catch me then.

I actually got a pretty decent mark on my accounting exam. Got 89%. I actually really thought I failed. D: Screw precal...

HOLY I haven't blog in such a long time. Well a couple of days. I was on a no facebook, twitter, tumblr and youtube strike. I'm glad that's over! Never doing again lol.

So a lot happened over the past few days. Mostly bad ones no offence ): On my accounting exam I forgot what posting was... and totally screwed up the worksheet. It didn't balance which means the rest of the answers are gonna be wrong as well. ): For math, I didn't finish 2 questions on mental math and guess like 5 questions on the multiple choice part. The sad ): part is, I did NOT finish the long answers section. Not to mention I was also late for my accounting exam that day. Like OMG FML

So whats bad about today is that I have to do another history essay. Jheeez these topics are SO stupid. Just saying. Well better get back to it if I want to finish gathering all the info tonight. "I"

I'm Actually really bored right now! ( I know I should be doing homework)

My favourite places to shop! ♥ (no specific order)

• Garage
• Hollister
• Aritzia
• Bluenotes
• American Eagle
• Aeropostale
• West 49, Billabong, Below the Belt
• Forever 21
• Lululemon
• Pink
• Stitches/ Urban Planet
• Bootlegger

Winnipeg Snow

"I don't want to get to the end of my life and find that I lived just the length of it. I want to have lived the width of it as well."- Diane Ackerman

I hate how I set homework and things to do the next day but I still end up not doing it and having to rush doing it a couple days before it is due -__-" OMG I cannot time mange. No matter how hard I try, I just can't. It's just plain horrible! You know! Honestly I'm gonna try even harder. Later when I get a job I really gotta time mange if I want to put up with my grades and such. I really want a phone lol.

Chinese midterm wasn't bad today. But I didn't study as hard. Oh well. to be honest at this point of my life, its not really a big deal to me anymore. I just wanna grad. :) I been there for over 10 years, every single Saturday. I might actually cry when we grad. I have feelings there you know. Time sure goes by fast. I'm almost turning 17 D:

brother broke one of the bowls we brought in Toronto ): at the T&T supermarket :/

Purpose in life

In history class we talked about Children of Canada today and that we have no purpose in our life. In other words "useless" ... Well, actually thinking about it, I can't disagree with my history teacher. I mean most of us want to go to post secondary education but a lot of us don't even know what to do there. And sadly I am one of them. Currently I'm living on life without a purpose. I am clueless on where I want to head in my life. I envy people that have a dream and know what they want exactly. You are more likely to succeed that way. Well my purpose is to find a purpose. But really, I have no idea where I want to head to in my life. All I know is that I want to go there and see the world. I really need to find my purpose soon. I'm almost graduating. I'm scared. What if I'm still clueless then?

Biology test was horrible today :/

Life is critical. You never know when it might end. It could be the next second or the next day or even 10 or 20 years from now. You just don't know. But just remember that every morning you wake up you should always try your best and live it to the fullest. If you got something to say to someone then say it. Don't turn it into a regret. You should always live your life with a positive attitude and reduce as many regrets as possible. It is hard but worth it because you only get to live once and there is no take two.

I'm happy right now with my life compared to about four years ago when I was in junior high. I was so shy back then and literally had no friends. The people I hang out with were my sister and her friends. All my other friends were in the other classes and I barely got to see them. Life sucked for me back then but now it's so different. I got friends in every grade and every class. My grades are decent and I got friends that I can count on to be with at lunch unlike back then. I got money ( not a lot but it's acceptable) and clothes. What I mean is that my school life is just so different compare to back then. I actually feel happy. Its hard to explain. But it feels great to have friends :) I always try to include people that are alone. I have a lot of friends but I'm only close to a few. But a few is enough for me.

A friend I met this school year. Well I didn't meet him this year exactly, I knew him from before but we started talking this year. It's great to meet new people. It takes a lot to meet someone and fate to become friend. To be honest, I kinda have a feeling towards him that's more than a friend. I can't say I like him but ... I just can't explain it. I just can't help having that extra feeling towards him. I get this. I never get the guy that I like. But you know what hurts more , the more you are trying not to think about that person the more you are. And also all the time you think about that person, he probably doesn't even think about you once. Maybe when he needs something. I'm really going to try to erase that extra feeling I have towards him. After all, we are friends.

I really want to maintain this friendship.

Starlit 心星的淚光

Jerry Yan from Starlit 心星的淚光
One of my all time favourite dramas. It was really good :)

"Respect for the fragility and importance of an individual life is still the mark of an educated man."- Norman Cousins
okay, last night was just plain horrible. I never been so tired in my entire life. I swear. FUCK. I don't like the teacher no offence. I miss Ellice! He was a great teacher! Current teacher is WAAAY too strict. Is she trying to kill me here??? And plus I haven't been swimming for over half a year now. First class and she made us do 24 laps in 15 minutes. Like OMG frick. I hate Monday's. At least for the next 9 Monday's. Thinking about it just makes me want to run into the road and get hit by a car. That's how much I actually hate it. No offence, (dad) if I don't wanna do something I wont do well in it. Your just wasting your money ( and my time) Jheeez. How did I even get myself into this?

Tuesday's for the win! :) At least for the next 9 Tuesday's -__-" Had a choir rehearsal today. My textbook went on a adventure today. So I forgot my textbook in the classroom yesterday. I went this morning to get it but he wasn't there and the bell was about to ring so I went to class. During the break I went back for it and Mr.Warnick told me that its on the side. We went there to get it and it wasn't there! :/ He thought it got stolen lol but turns out Jessica took it for me. ( I asked her to this morning. My bad ) It was quite a morning.

My wish List

The happiest people in life don't have it all. They just make the best of what they have- tumblr

My wish list :) This is what I'm saving up for.

• Bench Jacket!! I really want this
• Cardigans from garage
• lululemon hoodie
• Sweats from garage, urban planet/ stitches, hollister
• A pillow pet =DD
• Drinking bottle
• And of course, a cellphone :/

"The capacity for hope is the most significant fact of life. It provides human beings with a sense of destination and the energy to get started." - Norman Cousins

First day back to Chinese school today. Teacher's car broke down so she was like half an hour late. She went with Fung's brother after school lol for a ride. Hope her car gets fix soon. Dang! midterm next week! Oh my gosh. yay more studying -_-" Went to math and got money back yay. Don't have to go anymore. First time we went they "forgot" to prepare the money. The second time we went I had to avoid " Mary." Didn't wanna see her no offence. It might be awkward. Went to portage place after.

I said I wanna go home and watch dramas and my sister said its a waste of time. Well I strongly disagree with her. I really like watching dramas. Its not a huge part of my life but it is part of my life. Watching dramas gives me inspirations about life and how I really want to live it. To me it is not a waste of time. Its one way that I enjoy my life. Maybe it is to her because she is always studying and stuff. But to me I don't want to make studying all my life like she is. I don't enjoy my life that way. It's not me. Its not that I don't try in school. I get grades that I'm happy with. I always try to do better next time and aim higher. As long as I achieve what I want or need then I'm happy. I'm lazy! If I actually study to the best of my ability and actually try I can 100% guarantee you that I can get high grades and that I can beat my life on. But school has been my entire life. There are other things that I want to do to. I don't want to negative my life just for school. To me, its just not worth it. In the future you may end up with a great career but you lost time in your childhood and chances that may never come back to you. Who knows what may happen in the future. Good or bad? Accidents or joy? Time is what we need to manage. Because once its gone it will never come back. Everyone has a time limit in their life. So what you consider wasting time may not be for others. So please do not judge. Everyone is different.

The truth or the lie?

Some inspiration came ;D Just a short story by me

Setting: Classroom
Question: Would you rather be hurt by the truth or the lie?

A Girl was walking into her classroom until all of a sudden, someone calls her.
Boy: YO! (and walks into the classroom behind the girl) Are you free tonight?
Girl: I think so. (with a shy smile on her face)
Boy: Come over to my house for dinner tonight. (pretends to look around the classroom)
Girl: Are you inviting me?? (with a huge smile on her face)
Boy: Do you want the truth or the lie?
Girl: The lie.
Boy: Why? Wouldn't you rather be hurt by the truth though than the lie
Girl: I rather be hurt by the lie. Because once you know the truth everything you once had will all disappear. It hurts.
Boy: Yeah, it does hurt. But the longer it takes for you to find out the truth the more pain you are going to be in because you would have more than you had before. Either way it's going to hurt.
Girl: Well, it depends if it's worth it or not. (looks at the boy)
Boy: And is it worth it? (looks back at the girl) I mean, either way you are going to get hurt. Is it either hurt, or more hurt.
Girl: (gentle smile) I see. You do have a point.
Boy: So, do you want the truth or the lie?
Girl: The lie.
Boy: (laughs) Haha, you are so hard to read. I thought you said I have a point.
Girl: Yeah, you do. Its just that.......
Boy: that...
Girl: Its just that I already know the truth. Can't you just lie to me just to make me happy???
Boy: (looks at the girl for a few seconds, turns towards the door. After a few steps, he turns back and looks at the girl) Yes, I am inviting you to dinner. (He leaves the classroom)
Girl: (smiles to herself)

The End.
So the truth in the story is, the boy's mom is asking the boy to invite the girl over to their house for dinner. The girl likes the boy but she knows he doesn't feel the same way back. Lying is wrong but is telling the truth always right? I guess it depends on the situation. Either way, its your choice. No one can judge you whether your choices is wrong or right. Sometimes the right choice comes from your heart.

Tumblr Moments

Just a moment.

You once asked me, if I really like you. I can tell you the answer now. I do. I really do. I try forgetting about you and erasing you from my life. But now I realize that I can't. Its hard. The only way that I can forget about you is that I never see you again. But why? You gave me memories that I cannot forget. Why? It feels like that you have turned my life upside down. I was living a simple life until you came. I wish I never met you.  But you gave me such joyful memories that I don't want to forget. But at the same time, your leaving me with too much pain.

Dear life.
I wish things would just work out.

"Occasionally in life there are those moments of unutterable fulfillment which cannot be completely explained by those symbols called words. Their meanings can only be articulated by the inaudible language of the heart."- Martin Luther King, Jr.

Pretty good day today! Better than yesterday that's for sure ! :) Math class was so boring today! :( Accounting class was more relaxing! All we did was correct our work. FRICK! got homework assigned from both classes. Oh, and guess what? Accounting exam and math cumulative is on the same day. Wow what a coincidence right? lol Exact same two days. I hate/like watching videos in History. I hate it because it really makes me want to fall asleep and I like it because we don't have to do anywork. In biology class today we got to touch a fungi lol It was pretty coool! :DDD

Watching Sungkyunkwan Scandal episode 4 right now.
My goal today is to finish my math and accounting homework so I can have a relaxing evening ! I hope at least

"There has been much tragedy in my life; at least half of it actually happened."- Mark Twain

Sungkyunkwan Scandal ep3 right now! I know, I should be doing my homework and studying but.... :/ I'll do it later. For sure :)

Went to the library to print my history essay today but the printer was gone. How great is that? So I printed in accounting class :P I don't know why but it was awkward in accounting class today. In math we went over stuff and we learned about property taxes. Its actually pretty fun :P Lunch with Trisha, Mandy and Mayanne today! Janelle is still in New York! So lucky. Bio class was so boring today.

Time to finish up some homework and start on my biology test review. I think that would be a good idea! :) Gotta learn how to time manage.