Life is critical. You never know when it might end. It could be the next second or the next day or even 10 or 20 years from now. You just don't know. But just remember that every morning you wake up you should always try your best and live it to the fullest. If you got something to say to someone then say it. Don't turn it into a regret. You should always live your life with a positive attitude and reduce as many regrets as possible. It is hard but worth it because you only get to live once and there is no take two.

I'm happy right now with my life compared to about four years ago when I was in junior high. I was so shy back then and literally had no friends. The people I hang out with were my sister and her friends. All my other friends were in the other classes and I barely got to see them. Life sucked for me back then but now it's so different. I got friends in every grade and every class. My grades are decent and I got friends that I can count on to be with at lunch unlike back then. I got money ( not a lot but it's acceptable) and clothes. What I mean is that my school life is just so different compare to back then. I actually feel happy. Its hard to explain. But it feels great to have friends :) I always try to include people that are alone. I have a lot of friends but I'm only close to a few. But a few is enough for me.

A friend I met this school year. Well I didn't meet him this year exactly, I knew him from before but we started talking this year. It's great to meet new people. It takes a lot to meet someone and fate to become friend. To be honest, I kinda have a feeling towards him that's more than a friend. I can't say I like him but ... I just can't explain it. I just can't help having that extra feeling towards him. I get this. I never get the guy that I like. But you know what hurts more , the more you are trying not to think about that person the more you are. And also all the time you think about that person, he probably doesn't even think about you once. Maybe when he needs something. I'm really going to try to erase that extra feeling I have towards him. After all, we are friends.

I really want to maintain this friendship.

Starlit 心星的淚光

Jerry Yan from Starlit 心星的淚光
One of my all time favourite dramas. It was really good :)

"Respect for the fragility and importance of an individual life is still the mark of an educated man."- Norman Cousins
okay, last night was just plain horrible. I never been so tired in my entire life. I swear. FUCK. I don't like the teacher no offence. I miss Ellice! He was a great teacher! Current teacher is WAAAY too strict. Is she trying to kill me here??? And plus I haven't been swimming for over half a year now. First class and she made us do 24 laps in 15 minutes. Like OMG frick. I hate Monday's. At least for the next 9 Monday's. Thinking about it just makes me want to run into the road and get hit by a car. That's how much I actually hate it. No offence, (dad) if I don't wanna do something I wont do well in it. Your just wasting your money ( and my time) Jheeez. How did I even get myself into this?

Tuesday's for the win! :) At least for the next 9 Tuesday's -__-" Had a choir rehearsal today. My textbook went on a adventure today. So I forgot my textbook in the classroom yesterday. I went this morning to get it but he wasn't there and the bell was about to ring so I went to class. During the break I went back for it and Mr.Warnick told me that its on the side. We went there to get it and it wasn't there! :/ He thought it got stolen lol but turns out Jessica took it for me. ( I asked her to this morning. My bad ) It was quite a morning.

My wish List

The happiest people in life don't have it all. They just make the best of what they have- tumblr

My wish list :) This is what I'm saving up for.

• Bench Jacket!! I really want this
• Cardigans from garage
• lululemon hoodie
• Sweats from garage, urban planet/ stitches, hollister
• A pillow pet =DD
• Drinking bottle
• And of course, a cellphone :/

"The capacity for hope is the most significant fact of life. It provides human beings with a sense of destination and the energy to get started." - Norman Cousins

First day back to Chinese school today. Teacher's car broke down so she was like half an hour late. She went with Fung's brother after school lol for a ride. Hope her car gets fix soon. Dang! midterm next week! Oh my gosh. yay more studying -_-" Went to math and got money back yay. Don't have to go anymore. First time we went they "forgot" to prepare the money. The second time we went I had to avoid " Mary." Didn't wanna see her no offence. It might be awkward. Went to portage place after.

I said I wanna go home and watch dramas and my sister said its a waste of time. Well I strongly disagree with her. I really like watching dramas. Its not a huge part of my life but it is part of my life. Watching dramas gives me inspirations about life and how I really want to live it. To me it is not a waste of time. Its one way that I enjoy my life. Maybe it is to her because she is always studying and stuff. But to me I don't want to make studying all my life like she is. I don't enjoy my life that way. It's not me. Its not that I don't try in school. I get grades that I'm happy with. I always try to do better next time and aim higher. As long as I achieve what I want or need then I'm happy. I'm lazy! If I actually study to the best of my ability and actually try I can 100% guarantee you that I can get high grades and that I can beat my life on. But school has been my entire life. There are other things that I want to do to. I don't want to negative my life just for school. To me, its just not worth it. In the future you may end up with a great career but you lost time in your childhood and chances that may never come back to you. Who knows what may happen in the future. Good or bad? Accidents or joy? Time is what we need to manage. Because once its gone it will never come back. Everyone has a time limit in their life. So what you consider wasting time may not be for others. So please do not judge. Everyone is different.

The truth or the lie?

Some inspiration came ;D Just a short story by me

Setting: Classroom
Question: Would you rather be hurt by the truth or the lie?

A Girl was walking into her classroom until all of a sudden, someone calls her.
Boy: YO! (and walks into the classroom behind the girl) Are you free tonight?
Girl: I think so. (with a shy smile on her face)
Boy: Come over to my house for dinner tonight. (pretends to look around the classroom)
Girl: Are you inviting me?? (with a huge smile on her face)
Boy: Do you want the truth or the lie?
Girl: The lie.
Boy: Why? Wouldn't you rather be hurt by the truth though than the lie
Girl: I rather be hurt by the lie. Because once you know the truth everything you once had will all disappear. It hurts.
Boy: Yeah, it does hurt. But the longer it takes for you to find out the truth the more pain you are going to be in because you would have more than you had before. Either way it's going to hurt.
Girl: Well, it depends if it's worth it or not. (looks at the boy)
Boy: And is it worth it? (looks back at the girl) I mean, either way you are going to get hurt. Is it either hurt, or more hurt.
Girl: (gentle smile) I see. You do have a point.
Boy: So, do you want the truth or the lie?
Girl: The lie.
Boy: (laughs) Haha, you are so hard to read. I thought you said I have a point.
Girl: Yeah, you do. Its just that.......
Boy: that...
Girl: Its just that I already know the truth. Can't you just lie to me just to make me happy???
Boy: (looks at the girl for a few seconds, turns towards the door. After a few steps, he turns back and looks at the girl) Yes, I am inviting you to dinner. (He leaves the classroom)
Girl: (smiles to herself)

The End.
So the truth in the story is, the boy's mom is asking the boy to invite the girl over to their house for dinner. The girl likes the boy but she knows he doesn't feel the same way back. Lying is wrong but is telling the truth always right? I guess it depends on the situation. Either way, its your choice. No one can judge you whether your choices is wrong or right. Sometimes the right choice comes from your heart.

Tumblr Moments

Just a moment.

You once asked me, if I really like you. I can tell you the answer now. I do. I really do. I try forgetting about you and erasing you from my life. But now I realize that I can't. Its hard. The only way that I can forget about you is that I never see you again. But why? You gave me memories that I cannot forget. Why? It feels like that you have turned my life upside down. I was living a simple life until you came. I wish I never met you.  But you gave me such joyful memories that I don't want to forget. But at the same time, your leaving me with too much pain.

Dear life.
I wish things would just work out.

"Occasionally in life there are those moments of unutterable fulfillment which cannot be completely explained by those symbols called words. Their meanings can only be articulated by the inaudible language of the heart."- Martin Luther King, Jr.

Pretty good day today! Better than yesterday that's for sure ! :) Math class was so boring today! :( Accounting class was more relaxing! All we did was correct our work. FRICK! got homework assigned from both classes. Oh, and guess what? Accounting exam and math cumulative is on the same day. Wow what a coincidence right? lol Exact same two days. I hate/like watching videos in History. I hate it because it really makes me want to fall asleep and I like it because we don't have to do anywork. In biology class today we got to touch a fungi lol It was pretty coool! :DDD

Watching Sungkyunkwan Scandal episode 4 right now.
My goal today is to finish my math and accounting homework so I can have a relaxing evening ! I hope at least

"There has been much tragedy in my life; at least half of it actually happened."- Mark Twain

Sungkyunkwan Scandal ep3 right now! I know, I should be doing my homework and studying but.... :/ I'll do it later. For sure :)

Went to the library to print my history essay today but the printer was gone. How great is that? So I printed in accounting class :P I don't know why but it was awkward in accounting class today. In math we went over stuff and we learned about property taxes. Its actually pretty fun :P Lunch with Trisha, Mandy and Mayanne today! Janelle is still in New York! So lucky. Bio class was so boring today.

Time to finish up some homework and start on my biology test review. I think that would be a good idea! :) Gotta learn how to time manage.

tomorrow :/

"We spend most of our lives conjugating three verbs: to want, to have, and to do."- Evelyn Underhill

BACK TO SCHOOL TOMORROW D: oh my gosh! break was way too short ): I kinda want to go back to school but I just really hate waking up in the morning. Its too much pain.

sungkyunkwan scandal episode two today! lol I like this drama so far. But school is tomorrow. I'm going to be short on time again for dramas. Was starting to watch this a good idea? I wanna watch my dramas but I don't wanna let my grades slip and plus on Mondays I got to do stupid swimming lessons :O

Library, please be open tomorrow! I really need to print! FMLLL I would just print at home but my mom told me to print at school to save ink! Chinese parents.... If it doesn't print tomorrow then I pray that its not due tomorrow!

painfully but yes. I am finally done my essay

"There is no short cut to achievement. Life requires thorough preparation -- veneer isn't worth anything."- George Washington Carver

painfully but yes. I am finally done my essay :) yay So proud. I cant believe I could actually finish an essay in two days if I actually worked at it! So proud. I'm going to proofread it tomorrow. So lazy ! But I feel more relief.

 

Started watching sungkyunkwan scandal episode one today! Its pretty good. I'm interested to know whats going to happen next. lol

 

Goal tomorrow is to finish precal ( at least try to) and biology I guess. Even though its not really homework. I just wanna get over it! One more day of freedom tomorrow ): I am going to miss sleeping in!!!!! FML! I hate waking up in the morning!! No offence to morning people.  Hope tomorrow will last longer. And dear brother please don't wake me up at 9 tomorrow!

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awwh this is so cute! lol I got this off Tumblr!

I wanna take pictures like this with my boyfriend ;D

The hats are so cute

hahaha so adorable

I love Tumblr

"You desire to know the art of living, my friend? It is contained in one phrase: make use of suffering."- Henri-Frederic Amiel

I must say boring day but I actually got some work done. Like my math homework, I got through the hard sections and now I'm just speeding past it :P

So I made another attempt at that history essay and this time I am actually some where. :DD I'm writing it on early french explorers. I know the topic is boring but whatever. I just need it to last 5 pages long and hopefully it does. I think somewhat, I've collected all my information. Going to start typing it tomorrow. Introductions and conclusions are so hard for me. I'm not an English person :/ But I want a pretty decent mark in history so whatever I'm going to try. It cant be worst than my worst one anyways. Well, at least I hope not. Hope I finish early tomorrow. I want to start watching Sungkyunkwan Scandal ;)

2 more days of sleeping in ):

Goal tomorrow: Finish essay and precal.

Who's got this cute smile here??

Kim Hyun Joong =DD

Is the rose for me? lol

"I am on the side of the unregenerate who affirm the worth of life as an end in itself, as against the saints who deny it." - Oliver Wendell Holmes

Woke up and my dad was pissing me off -_-" jheez what the eff. What a great way to start the second day of a new year. Sometimes I just wish he would stfu. Then we went over to cousins for lunch. Dang! I was hungry, didn't eat breakfast lol Its great to get together with family.

Then I went to polo park and there was no SALE at hollister! STUPID WEBSITE !!! CURSE YOU ! -_____-" ohmygosh! I want these cardigans at hollister and garage! They are so nice!

Just got back from Jessica Tran's house :D well more like an hour ago. It was fun and we had some awkward moments lool. We played truth or dare and I had to kiss the wall. LOOOL :S We had pretty good conversations! :) Talked about almost everything!! Then we watched the easy a. It was funny. LOOL love Peggy's laugh :P Then we exchanged gifts :D OMMG Peggy got me the hat I wanted from bootlegger!! SO happy :D I was going to buy it but when I went back it was not there anymore !!!

What an interesting New Year.

"An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves". ~Bill Vaughan

What an interesting New Year.


This morning, played mahjong with Sister and Mom. HAHA and this stranger and she lost so bad that she wont even join our table -____-" HAHAHAHA and mom lost add her points. She only had 27 points left. Then I attempted to do some of my math homework and my history essay. So fail. I'm not even doing it anymore. I swear, its way too hard! I'm gonna watch dramas loool Made bubble tea today :)

I remember 2010 like it was yesterday.- tumblr LOOOL


OMG sale at hollister! 40% -___-" Great and I brought my hoodie for 50 dollars tooo! Might buy another one tomorrow.So much for saving up D: and I'm going to Jessica's tomorrow for secret Santa xD

♥ Happy New Years 2011 新年快樂 ♥

♥ Happy New Years 2011 新年快樂 ♥ Happy 2011

Happy New Years everyone. New year, new start. I wonder what I am going to come across this year. And OMG I'm turning 17 this year D: So old now. I should stop wasting time and do what I wanna do. The risks you didn't take are the regrets of your life. I really hope that this year will be different from the past 16 years. I will ensure that. Live and look at life from a positive way. Im going to "try" to put more effort into school and not be lazy. Going to try to get into a good habit of exercising. ( I got gym next semester anyways and swimming in ten days :/ ) I hope we can go traveling this year. I really want to go to B.C.  And I'm going to start saving up for a cellphone and apply to more places to volunteer. I'm going to go out more with friends. I'm also going to try to convince parents to get us a wii!! :D I am going to try. If you think you can, you can. I'm also going to try to watch more dramas. So behind. But first I really gotta start that history essay and finish that math assignment -_-"

生日快樂 - 言承旭
Happy Birthday Jerry Yan 言承旭 Thank you for acting so well in dramas. I really like you in Down with love and Starlit! Happy new years and good luck to you in the future.

Should make some plans today............

Saving up for a macbook. May take awhile at the rate I'm spending....
I still want a cellphone :/

2010 confessions and highlights

I confess that in 2010 I...
- Wanted to tell the guy I liked that I liked him
- Wanted to run away from home
- Spent a lot of money on useless things
- Thought about cheating on a test (but I didn't of course, I rather get a zero)
- Made stupid choices and worried too much about little things
- Hated swimming and still do -_-"
- Loved mile run in gym class! And fittness.
- Wanted to meet my prince charming :P
- I wanted to change my lifestyle by doing morning jogs but that never happened.
- I went through a lot of stress. Ups and downs. Felt bad for giving someone up but I'm moving on.


Highlights of 2010
-Traveling to the states, Chicago and Toronto. Cousins got a speeding ticket on the way there we got one on the way back lol
-Jessica Tran's house and calling Andrew Tang telling him that he failed his math cumulative.
-Kildonan place with Sister and Cousin and watching the switch I think
-Meeting my uncles from New York and Las Vegas
-Putting together the drama at Chinese school
-Seeing Mr.Warnick at starbucks and Mr. Shedden at Sears
-Buying myself an ipod touch
-Going to the beach with family and burying chips in the sand ;)
-Watching the Olympic hockey game. Canada vs U.S.A and Canada won haha
-My uncles birthday at kum koon. Me, sister and cousin had great conversations!
-Went to buffet square on my dad's birthday and sister took a WHOLE plate of food! hahahahahahah
-Going to St Vital with cousins and met this man asking me if I was Japanese
-Polo with Jessica, Mayanne, Mandy and Patricia. We chilled at the food court.

I hope that 2011 will bring me even more memories that I can remember forever.