Honestly, stop yelling at me dad. I got feelings too you know. Just because you are pissed or not in a good mood doesn't mean you got the right to yell at me. Kay? So stop honestly. I don't hate you or anything and I know you love us a lot but your attitude. I'm sorry I just cannot take it. The way you are communicating with me makes me want to run away. I honestly hate it LIKE HONESTLY when people yell and me. AND PLEASE STOP CALLING ME STUPID because I am not! OKAY?? I'm just sayin. I'm not saying I'm smart or anything but I'm not dumb either. I have confident. I know what I am doing so please don't ever under estimate me and call me stupid because I am not. And that goes for everyone out there. Everyone is different. SO don't and I repeat don't expect too much from me but I will not go the way you want me to. Don't plan my life and tell me what to do. Don't judge me because I don't judge you. So please stop, stop forcing me. Its pressures me and makes me want to leave. If I do one day, don't blame me. Its good for all of us. I want to leave Winnipeg and not because of you guys. I want to go out and see the real world and find my stop of happiness. I want to live a life that is worth living. But doesn't everyone want to?
Winnipeg gave a lot of memories. Good and bad, happy and sad. But to be honest there is nothing really that makes Winnipeg worth staying for me. I'm graduating in two years and I still don't know what to do with my life. I want to go out and search. I want to find my dreams and fulfill them. I once thought I have found a reason to stay but not anymore. I want to see what the world really looks it. I want to know. I want to know where I will find you. Wherever you are. Whoever you are.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
you can give me many reasons to prove me wrong but I can give you one reason to prove me right and that reason is,
I don't have a reason. Because loving someone doesn't require a reason.
( something that just came to my mind. totally wish a guy would say this to me :P)
What a week. I'm so glad tomorrow is Friday :) and glow bowling with friends so I'm pretty excited for that. Got this stupid Chinese exam on Saturday and I'm like so not in the mood to study for it. In history today, Mr. Shedden told us that his dad passed away. R.I.P Mr. Shedden's dad. And he brought in his family bible which was actually pretty cool, His family tree is in it. He can trace back to his family members like over 100 years ago. He said that the bible is 146 years old which is like older than Canada. I am so going to miss history. Even though he picks on you.. But I must say, history was like one of the best classes ever in my high school life. Shedden did a really good job of making it interesting. He really did and I want him to know that. I am going to miss it. Only 1 month left ):
Well, going to actually try and study for the exam :P and history quiz tomorrow! :D
I don't have a reason. Because loving someone doesn't require a reason.
( something that just came to my mind. totally wish a guy would say this to me :P)
What a week. I'm so glad tomorrow is Friday :) and glow bowling with friends so I'm pretty excited for that. Got this stupid Chinese exam on Saturday and I'm like so not in the mood to study for it. In history today, Mr. Shedden told us that his dad passed away. R.I.P Mr. Shedden's dad. And he brought in his family bible which was actually pretty cool, His family tree is in it. He can trace back to his family members like over 100 years ago. He said that the bible is 146 years old which is like older than Canada. I am so going to miss history. Even though he picks on you.. But I must say, history was like one of the best classes ever in my high school life. Shedden did a really good job of making it interesting. He really did and I want him to know that. I am going to miss it. Only 1 month left ):
Well, going to actually try and study for the exam :P and history quiz tomorrow! :D
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
don't expect too much from me
What a concert last night. Jazz band sounded amazing, like usual. Actually, all the performances were great! And so we actually missed our last note on our last song :/ can't believe it ):
Today wasn't such a great day for me. Due to personal reasons, I don't feel like blogging this one. Maybe later, but not right now. I'm just not in the mood. So I did not find my bio labs ): Which is pretty sad and I had to asked Warnick for another copy. He was like "ohno that's not good". OMG and also we had this random fire drill at lunch and it was like freezing outside. -___-" wow story of my life. Shaw also came today. We are offically shaw now lol.
ps. I must say, youtube gotten faster LOL
Don't get your hopes up because it will lead to disappointment. No hope = no disappointment. Am I not right? don't expect too much from me because....
I don't have much to give back in return.
Today wasn't such a great day for me. Due to personal reasons, I don't feel like blogging this one. Maybe later, but not right now. I'm just not in the mood. So I did not find my bio labs ): Which is pretty sad and I had to asked Warnick for another copy. He was like "ohno that's not good". OMG and also we had this random fire drill at lunch and it was like freezing outside. -___-" wow story of my life. Shaw also came today. We are offically shaw now lol.
ps. I must say, youtube gotten faster LOL
Don't get your hopes up because it will lead to disappointment. No hope = no disappointment. Am I not right? don't expect too much from me because....
I don't have much to give back in return.
Monday, December 13, 2010
Sisler Christmas Concert tonight
are you kidding me? I losted my biology labs and chapter review. Someone just kill me, please.
So, I losted my biology assignment!! Im sooo sad! Like omg I just want my labs back like honestly! ): I worked so hard on the labs and my pictures were so amazing!!!! Screw the chapter review. I didnt even start that lol
Sisler Christmas Concert tonight. Hope everything goes well. I swear I am too tall to be in the front row lol no offence.
Got to do some explaining tomorrow......... :/
ps. Got 85% on my photosynthesis test :) and got 90% on my math quiz so yeah that made me pretty happy xDDD
So, I losted my biology assignment!! Im sooo sad! Like omg I just want my labs back like honestly! ): I worked so hard on the labs and my pictures were so amazing!!!! Screw the chapter review. I didnt even start that lol
Sisler Christmas Concert tonight. Hope everything goes well. I swear I am too tall to be in the front row lol no offence.
Got to do some explaining tomorrow......... :/
ps. Got 85% on my photosynthesis test :) and got 90% on my math quiz so yeah that made me pretty happy xDDD
Saturday, December 11, 2010
when you are sick, then you are sick
"One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: that word is love."- Sophocles
Drama performance today at Chinese school. Fung actually performed pretty well! LOOL he is like the only one that can make the audience laugh! :D
So I came down with a cold today. Maybe its because I haven't been sick for so long that I actually started crying lol :/ It sucks being sick. I mean really. I head was in pain but its all better now. My sister is sick now. "I" germs can spread so easily loool I never want to be sick again! But I know that's like impossible. LOOOOL So I worked on my biology take home test. ITs soooo long! LOL
And happy early birthday grandma. :)
Drama performance today at Chinese school. Fung actually performed pretty well! LOOL he is like the only one that can make the audience laugh! :D
So I came down with a cold today. Maybe its because I haven't been sick for so long that I actually started crying lol :/ It sucks being sick. I mean really. I head was in pain but its all better now. My sister is sick now. "I" germs can spread so easily loool I never want to be sick again! But I know that's like impossible. LOOOOL So I worked on my biology take home test. ITs soooo long! LOL
And happy early birthday grandma. :)
Friday, December 10, 2010
coming down with a cold
ohmy
I think I am coming down with a cold. Right now, feeling super tired and sleepy :/ My body is sore tooo ):
My dad gets off work at 9pm tomorrow night so I got to stay at my grandma's until then. I hope I feel better when tomorrow comes. I have a headache right now.
Goal tomorrow is to finish biology. Somewhat finish I guess. ugggh :/ I feel so crappy right now. So sad! OMMMMG and Chinese drama presentation tomorrow. I hope my voice gets better and hope I don't screw up. Like ohmy, its going to be embarrassing.
I think I am coming down with a cold. Right now, feeling super tired and sleepy :/ My body is sore tooo ):
My dad gets off work at 9pm tomorrow night so I got to stay at my grandma's until then. I hope I feel better when tomorrow comes. I have a headache right now.
Goal tomorrow is to finish biology. Somewhat finish I guess. ugggh :/ I feel so crappy right now. So sad! OMMMMG and Chinese drama presentation tomorrow. I hope my voice gets better and hope I don't screw up. Like ohmy, its going to be embarrassing.
唐禹哲= 灰色河堤
OMG so sad, especially the ending when he says " I still choose to love you" What a heart breaker!! I guess this just shows that happiness came come and go just like that.
Relationships and Friendships
Some say friendship can last forever.
It can that is, if you have found true friends. Friends that will stay by your side and no matter what happens they will always support what you do. You can trust and share all your thoughts with them.
Some people think it is stupid to give up a relationship but friendship. " I don't want to hurt her/him." That is just an excuse. An excuse to lie to yourself. That you are actually afraid to open up to him. And at that time your friend tells you she likes him so you use that as an excuse and give up on him. Yes, actually it is kind of stupid. Are you actually going to see that friend for the rest of your life? Friendship may or may not be for life but happiness is. Its going to be with you whether you feel it or not. So to give up a relationship for friendship, is it really worth it? Unless that person is your true friend. The point is, don't lie to yourself. Go with your feelings. Open your heart and be true to yourself.
It can that is, if you have found true friends. Friends that will stay by your side and no matter what happens they will always support what you do. You can trust and share all your thoughts with them.
Some people think it is stupid to give up a relationship but friendship. " I don't want to hurt her/him." That is just an excuse. An excuse to lie to yourself. That you are actually afraid to open up to him. And at that time your friend tells you she likes him so you use that as an excuse and give up on him. Yes, actually it is kind of stupid. Are you actually going to see that friend for the rest of your life? Friendship may or may not be for life but happiness is. Its going to be with you whether you feel it or not. So to give up a relationship for friendship, is it really worth it? Unless that person is your true friend. The point is, don't lie to yourself. Go with your feelings. Open your heart and be true to yourself.
"This is the true joy of life, the being used up for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one."- George Bernard Shaw
My day went like this today
In precal we did a quiz and I think I did pretty well on it. :)) So I'm pretty proud of that. In accounting we had a sub. No offence but she is kinda creepy :/ My friend is writing his calculus exam today, well like right now. I really hope he does well. His exam starts at 6 his so hes been at it for like half an hour now. Good luck! Dress rehearsal today and it went okay. Jazz band sounds so good this year! :D My friend is in jazz band. My afternoon was bunk. Corrected biology assignment and got 20 point something out of 25. Not bad, I thought I did worst -_-" History test was quite a story. It was do dam long! Like holy crap. The last question man. I hope I did well on it!
My day went like this today
In precal we did a quiz and I think I did pretty well on it. :)) So I'm pretty proud of that. In accounting we had a sub. No offence but she is kinda creepy :/ My friend is writing his calculus exam today, well like right now. I really hope he does well. His exam starts at 6 his so hes been at it for like half an hour now. Good luck! Dress rehearsal today and it went okay. Jazz band sounds so good this year! :D My friend is in jazz band. My afternoon was bunk. Corrected biology assignment and got 20 point something out of 25. Not bad, I thought I did worst -_-" History test was quite a story. It was do dam long! Like holy crap. The last question man. I hope I did well on it!
Thursday, December 9, 2010
happiness is the key element in life
Honestly,
Don't you just hate it how you start to fall for guys that you know you shouldn't. Either they already have someone they like or they already have a girlfriend. But the more you talk to him the more deeper it goes. You don't want him to talk to you but when he actually doesn't you start to feel depressed. -_-" When he does talk to you, you feel happy but at the same time hurt. Because you know that one day he is going to leave you and that one day he is just going to be a chapter of your story and not the ending. You know that and he knows that too. But what you don't know is the future. If you guys were meant to be then no matter how long and how far you will still end up with him if he is your fate. Instead of waiting for nothing why not just move on with life? If he is meant to be with you then he will. Its just a matter of time. Time is a element in relationships. "Doing nothing is actually doing something" -Shedden. So just do nothing and live everyday to the best of your ability. Fate will bring you back to him no matter what happens. Just wait.
Also I saw him in the halls today and guess what, I felt nothing! Like nothing at all. At that moment I know that I can move on. And plus I got other things to think about. I guess he is just a short chapter in my life. Well time to do my math homework. History test and math quiz tomorrow :/ I hope I do well
Don't you just hate it how you start to fall for guys that you know you shouldn't. Either they already have someone they like or they already have a girlfriend. But the more you talk to him the more deeper it goes. You don't want him to talk to you but when he actually doesn't you start to feel depressed. -_-" When he does talk to you, you feel happy but at the same time hurt. Because you know that one day he is going to leave you and that one day he is just going to be a chapter of your story and not the ending. You know that and he knows that too. But what you don't know is the future. If you guys were meant to be then no matter how long and how far you will still end up with him if he is your fate. Instead of waiting for nothing why not just move on with life? If he is meant to be with you then he will. Its just a matter of time. Time is a element in relationships. "Doing nothing is actually doing something" -Shedden. So just do nothing and live everyday to the best of your ability. Fate will bring you back to him no matter what happens. Just wait.
Also I saw him in the halls today and guess what, I felt nothing! Like nothing at all. At that moment I know that I can move on. And plus I got other things to think about. I guess he is just a short chapter in my life. Well time to do my math homework. History test and math quiz tomorrow :/ I hope I do well
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
happy birthday Raymond Lam ♥♥♥♥♥
Sometimes if you want to forget someone, you actually keep thinking of them more.
Sometimes I wish I can start my life over and erase the memories I want to forget. But I know I can't. No one can. Unless they bang their head into something and forgets everything. Now that is a different story. The more I don't want to see him, the more I bump into him in the hallways. And everything I bump into him in the hallways he is always either A: waiting for her or B: Actually with her... I swear, I got the WORST timing in the world.
Decent day today. Somewhat got my work done. I am not looking forward for Friday. Why? 1: math quiz 2: History TEST 3: biology assignment due -_-" ITs just not going to be a good day...... OMG
And happy birthday to Raymond Lam!! FUNG forever!!! :))))
Sometimes I wish I can start my life over and erase the memories I want to forget. But I know I can't. No one can. Unless they bang their head into something and forgets everything. Now that is a different story. The more I don't want to see him, the more I bump into him in the hallways. And everything I bump into him in the hallways he is always either A: waiting for her or B: Actually with her... I swear, I got the WORST timing in the world.
Decent day today. Somewhat got my work done. I am not looking forward for Friday. Why? 1: math quiz 2: History TEST 3: biology assignment due -_-" ITs just not going to be a good day...... OMG
And happy birthday to Raymond Lam!! FUNG forever!!! :))))
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
"Love asks no return. " Hot Shot
Oh biology, how I hate you. -_-" I'm working on my biology assignment right now and it is killing me! Its hard ): This morning brought hot chocolate! :)) Hmm, I'm wondering what I should get Jessica for secret Santa!
Is it just me? Or do I have like the worst timing ever??? Drama much, I saw him today at lunch well after lunch and I saw him kiss her. At that moment I knew everything is over. It really is and I give up. I was the one to give up first so I'm not going to fight for it anymore and plus both of them are my friends. I want them to be happy even if I'm not. But I will be. I'm moving up. My life doesn't revolve around him. So yeah, ....... I guess you can say I'm pretty stupid. " If you like him why didn't you tell him earlier, and now he has a girlfriend." Because at that time my other friend told me she likes him. Well to me now, it doesn't really matter anymore. There is no take two in life. No matter how deep I fall I will get back up. I will. I don't give up that easily. And I wont. I guess this is not the stop. I will continue to wait. Until I get to my stop of happiness. Until then I will continue living my life and living it to the fullest. Even if it doesn't include him.
"Love asks no return. " Hot Shot
Is it just me? Or do I have like the worst timing ever??? Drama much, I saw him today at lunch well after lunch and I saw him kiss her. At that moment I knew everything is over. It really is and I give up. I was the one to give up first so I'm not going to fight for it anymore and plus both of them are my friends. I want them to be happy even if I'm not. But I will be. I'm moving up. My life doesn't revolve around him. So yeah, ....... I guess you can say I'm pretty stupid. " If you like him why didn't you tell him earlier, and now he has a girlfriend." Because at that time my other friend told me she likes him. Well to me now, it doesn't really matter anymore. There is no take two in life. No matter how deep I fall I will get back up. I will. I don't give up that easily. And I wont. I guess this is not the stop. I will continue to wait. Until I get to my stop of happiness. Until then I will continue living my life and living it to the fullest. Even if it doesn't include him.
"Love asks no return. " Hot Shot
Monday, December 6, 2010
Whats up guys?
I haven't blog in a while. Gotta keep up my blogging.
Every year my Christmas wish and birthday wish is the same. And that wish is to find my prince charming. I rather be in love once even though it might be painful then to be in a relationship that isn't really love. I wonder when will I find him? Is he already in my world? I don't know why but I always like guys that I know its going to be impossible. I just don't know why. It actually hurts :/ I mean really it does. You see him in the hallways and yeah.... you know. You want him to be happy and feel happy for him but in reality you are not happy. I'm giving up. My life, I want it to be a good story. I want to go out of Winnipeg and see the real world. I want to be blessed. And if one day I do find you, is when I will stop because I have already arrival at my stop of happiness. And at that stop of happiness, is you.
When will I arrival there? Lets let time do the magic.
I haven't blog in a while. Gotta keep up my blogging.
Every year my Christmas wish and birthday wish is the same. And that wish is to find my prince charming. I rather be in love once even though it might be painful then to be in a relationship that isn't really love. I wonder when will I find him? Is he already in my world? I don't know why but I always like guys that I know its going to be impossible. I just don't know why. It actually hurts :/ I mean really it does. You see him in the hallways and yeah.... you know. You want him to be happy and feel happy for him but in reality you are not happy. I'm giving up. My life, I want it to be a good story. I want to go out of Winnipeg and see the real world. I want to be blessed. And if one day I do find you, is when I will stop because I have already arrival at my stop of happiness. And at that stop of happiness, is you.
When will I arrival there? Lets let time do the magic.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
I've been thinking....
I've been thinking,
What if I said yes back then instead of no
What would we be now?
I've been wondering,
I'd always see you after school and you seem so happy
Is it because you have given up and moved on?
I've been saying to myself
I will not regret the choices that I made
Because it was once what I wanted
But Now
I've been hoping
that you will talk to me again
and message me like you used to when I'm online
I've been wishing
that you will give me another chance
one more chance to make that choice again
I've been praying
praying that I can go back in time
and remake my decisions
I just want to tell you
that I've
have been thinking about you.
- carmenwang
What if I said yes back then instead of no
What would we be now?
I've been wondering,
I'd always see you after school and you seem so happy
Is it because you have given up and moved on?
I've been saying to myself
I will not regret the choices that I made
Because it was once what I wanted
But Now
I've been hoping
that you will talk to me again
and message me like you used to when I'm online
I've been wishing
that you will give me another chance
one more chance to make that choice again
I've been praying
praying that I can go back in time
and remake my decisions
I just want to tell you
that I've
have been thinking about you.
- carmenwang
Friday, December 3, 2010
Good day in the morning
Bad day in the afternoon and evening .. -_-" and right now, my stomach hurts :/
So in the morning:
OMG I did not get 61% I got 61/65 on my accounting test LOLOL Jhhez! I scared myself for nothing :P but my mark went down like one percent! Got my precal test back today and I didn't do that well on it. Got 83% but still, it made my day :D
In the afternoon:
My sister had a lock down at the bowling place she went for gym and missed her last two period class. Then we missed our mom's ride! she THOUGHT we left..... and we didn't ( clearly) And I totally failed that history quiz -_-"
Evening:
MY BROTHER TOOK MY STICKY NOTES from my room. LIKE WHAT THE HELL. Kay, its not the sticky notes. I just hate it when people take my stuff without asking. I kinda freak out on him, but still! ARRRRRR
Finally done my blog entry! My stomach kept hurting
Bad day in the afternoon and evening .. -_-" and right now, my stomach hurts :/
So in the morning:
OMG I did not get 61% I got 61/65 on my accounting test LOLOL Jhhez! I scared myself for nothing :P but my mark went down like one percent! Got my precal test back today and I didn't do that well on it. Got 83% but still, it made my day :D
In the afternoon:
My sister had a lock down at the bowling place she went for gym and missed her last two period class. Then we missed our mom's ride! she THOUGHT we left..... and we didn't ( clearly) And I totally failed that history quiz -_-"
Evening:
MY BROTHER TOOK MY STICKY NOTES from my room. LIKE WHAT THE HELL. Kay, its not the sticky notes. I just hate it when people take my stuff without asking. I kinda freak out on him, but still! ARRRRRR
Finally done my blog entry! My stomach kept hurting
Thursday, December 2, 2010
I haven't blog for a while. Yesterday I got my biology test back and I got 85%. Warnick put excellent on it! That made my day! I never got an excellent on my biology test before :))))))))
So today I found out that I got 61% on my accounting test -_-"
I got to go sleep now! I don't wanna get in trouble -_-" blog more tomorrow! and I wish also post my Christmas wish list ;)
So today I found out that I got 61% on my accounting test -_-"
I got to go sleep now! I don't wanna get in trouble -_-" blog more tomorrow! and I wish also post my Christmas wish list ;)
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