"The capacity for hope is the most significant fact of life. It provides human beings with a sense of destination and the energy to get started." - Norman Cousins

First day back to Chinese school today. Teacher's car broke down so she was like half an hour late. She went with Fung's brother after school lol for a ride. Hope her car gets fix soon. Dang! midterm next week! Oh my gosh. yay more studying -_-" Went to math and got money back yay. Don't have to go anymore. First time we went they "forgot" to prepare the money. The second time we went I had to avoid " Mary." Didn't wanna see her no offence. It might be awkward. Went to portage place after.

I said I wanna go home and watch dramas and my sister said its a waste of time. Well I strongly disagree with her. I really like watching dramas. Its not a huge part of my life but it is part of my life. Watching dramas gives me inspirations about life and how I really want to live it. To me it is not a waste of time. Its one way that I enjoy my life. Maybe it is to her because she is always studying and stuff. But to me I don't want to make studying all my life like she is. I don't enjoy my life that way. It's not me. Its not that I don't try in school. I get grades that I'm happy with. I always try to do better next time and aim higher. As long as I achieve what I want or need then I'm happy. I'm lazy! If I actually study to the best of my ability and actually try I can 100% guarantee you that I can get high grades and that I can beat my life on. But school has been my entire life. There are other things that I want to do to. I don't want to negative my life just for school. To me, its just not worth it. In the future you may end up with a great career but you lost time in your childhood and chances that may never come back to you. Who knows what may happen in the future. Good or bad? Accidents or joy? Time is what we need to manage. Because once its gone it will never come back. Everyone has a time limit in their life. So what you consider wasting time may not be for others. So please do not judge. Everyone is different.

The truth or the lie?

Some inspiration came ;D Just a short story by me

Setting: Classroom
Question: Would you rather be hurt by the truth or the lie?

A Girl was walking into her classroom until all of a sudden, someone calls her.
Boy: YO! (and walks into the classroom behind the girl) Are you free tonight?
Girl: I think so. (with a shy smile on her face)
Boy: Come over to my house for dinner tonight. (pretends to look around the classroom)
Girl: Are you inviting me?? (with a huge smile on her face)
Boy: Do you want the truth or the lie?
Girl: The lie.
Boy: Why? Wouldn't you rather be hurt by the truth though than the lie
Girl: I rather be hurt by the lie. Because once you know the truth everything you once had will all disappear. It hurts.
Boy: Yeah, it does hurt. But the longer it takes for you to find out the truth the more pain you are going to be in because you would have more than you had before. Either way it's going to hurt.
Girl: Well, it depends if it's worth it or not. (looks at the boy)
Boy: And is it worth it? (looks back at the girl) I mean, either way you are going to get hurt. Is it either hurt, or more hurt.
Girl: (gentle smile) I see. You do have a point.
Boy: So, do you want the truth or the lie?
Girl: The lie.
Boy: (laughs) Haha, you are so hard to read. I thought you said I have a point.
Girl: Yeah, you do. Its just that.......
Boy: that...
Girl: Its just that I already know the truth. Can't you just lie to me just to make me happy???
Boy: (looks at the girl for a few seconds, turns towards the door. After a few steps, he turns back and looks at the girl) Yes, I am inviting you to dinner. (He leaves the classroom)
Girl: (smiles to herself)

The End.
So the truth in the story is, the boy's mom is asking the boy to invite the girl over to their house for dinner. The girl likes the boy but she knows he doesn't feel the same way back. Lying is wrong but is telling the truth always right? I guess it depends on the situation. Either way, its your choice. No one can judge you whether your choices is wrong or right. Sometimes the right choice comes from your heart.

Tumblr Moments

Just a moment.

You once asked me, if I really like you. I can tell you the answer now. I do. I really do. I try forgetting about you and erasing you from my life. But now I realize that I can't. Its hard. The only way that I can forget about you is that I never see you again. But why? You gave me memories that I cannot forget. Why? It feels like that you have turned my life upside down. I was living a simple life until you came. I wish I never met you.  But you gave me such joyful memories that I don't want to forget. But at the same time, your leaving me with too much pain.

Dear life.
I wish things would just work out.

"Occasionally in life there are those moments of unutterable fulfillment which cannot be completely explained by those symbols called words. Their meanings can only be articulated by the inaudible language of the heart."- Martin Luther King, Jr.

Pretty good day today! Better than yesterday that's for sure ! :) Math class was so boring today! :( Accounting class was more relaxing! All we did was correct our work. FRICK! got homework assigned from both classes. Oh, and guess what? Accounting exam and math cumulative is on the same day. Wow what a coincidence right? lol Exact same two days. I hate/like watching videos in History. I hate it because it really makes me want to fall asleep and I like it because we don't have to do anywork. In biology class today we got to touch a fungi lol It was pretty coool! :DDD

Watching Sungkyunkwan Scandal episode 4 right now.
My goal today is to finish my math and accounting homework so I can have a relaxing evening ! I hope at least

"There has been much tragedy in my life; at least half of it actually happened."- Mark Twain

Sungkyunkwan Scandal ep3 right now! I know, I should be doing my homework and studying but.... :/ I'll do it later. For sure :)

Went to the library to print my history essay today but the printer was gone. How great is that? So I printed in accounting class :P I don't know why but it was awkward in accounting class today. In math we went over stuff and we learned about property taxes. Its actually pretty fun :P Lunch with Trisha, Mandy and Mayanne today! Janelle is still in New York! So lucky. Bio class was so boring today.

Time to finish up some homework and start on my biology test review. I think that would be a good idea! :) Gotta learn how to time manage.

tomorrow :/

"We spend most of our lives conjugating three verbs: to want, to have, and to do."- Evelyn Underhill

BACK TO SCHOOL TOMORROW D: oh my gosh! break was way too short ): I kinda want to go back to school but I just really hate waking up in the morning. Its too much pain.

sungkyunkwan scandal episode two today! lol I like this drama so far. But school is tomorrow. I'm going to be short on time again for dramas. Was starting to watch this a good idea? I wanna watch my dramas but I don't wanna let my grades slip and plus on Mondays I got to do stupid swimming lessons :O

Library, please be open tomorrow! I really need to print! FMLLL I would just print at home but my mom told me to print at school to save ink! Chinese parents.... If it doesn't print tomorrow then I pray that its not due tomorrow!

painfully but yes. I am finally done my essay

"There is no short cut to achievement. Life requires thorough preparation -- veneer isn't worth anything."- George Washington Carver

painfully but yes. I am finally done my essay :) yay So proud. I cant believe I could actually finish an essay in two days if I actually worked at it! So proud. I'm going to proofread it tomorrow. So lazy ! But I feel more relief.

 

Started watching sungkyunkwan scandal episode one today! Its pretty good. I'm interested to know whats going to happen next. lol

 

Goal tomorrow is to finish precal ( at least try to) and biology I guess. Even though its not really homework. I just wanna get over it! One more day of freedom tomorrow ): I am going to miss sleeping in!!!!! FML! I hate waking up in the morning!! No offence to morning people.  Hope tomorrow will last longer. And dear brother please don't wake me up at 9 tomorrow!

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awwh this is so cute! lol I got this off Tumblr!

I wanna take pictures like this with my boyfriend ;D

The hats are so cute

hahaha so adorable

I love Tumblr

"You desire to know the art of living, my friend? It is contained in one phrase: make use of suffering."- Henri-Frederic Amiel

I must say boring day but I actually got some work done. Like my math homework, I got through the hard sections and now I'm just speeding past it :P

So I made another attempt at that history essay and this time I am actually some where. :DD I'm writing it on early french explorers. I know the topic is boring but whatever. I just need it to last 5 pages long and hopefully it does. I think somewhat, I've collected all my information. Going to start typing it tomorrow. Introductions and conclusions are so hard for me. I'm not an English person :/ But I want a pretty decent mark in history so whatever I'm going to try. It cant be worst than my worst one anyways. Well, at least I hope not. Hope I finish early tomorrow. I want to start watching Sungkyunkwan Scandal ;)

2 more days of sleeping in ):

Goal tomorrow: Finish essay and precal.

Who's got this cute smile here??

Kim Hyun Joong =DD

Is the rose for me? lol

"I am on the side of the unregenerate who affirm the worth of life as an end in itself, as against the saints who deny it." - Oliver Wendell Holmes

Woke up and my dad was pissing me off -_-" jheez what the eff. What a great way to start the second day of a new year. Sometimes I just wish he would stfu. Then we went over to cousins for lunch. Dang! I was hungry, didn't eat breakfast lol Its great to get together with family.

Then I went to polo park and there was no SALE at hollister! STUPID WEBSITE !!! CURSE YOU ! -_____-" ohmygosh! I want these cardigans at hollister and garage! They are so nice!

Just got back from Jessica Tran's house :D well more like an hour ago. It was fun and we had some awkward moments lool. We played truth or dare and I had to kiss the wall. LOOOL :S We had pretty good conversations! :) Talked about almost everything!! Then we watched the easy a. It was funny. LOOL love Peggy's laugh :P Then we exchanged gifts :D OMMG Peggy got me the hat I wanted from bootlegger!! SO happy :D I was going to buy it but when I went back it was not there anymore !!!

What an interesting New Year.

"An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves". ~Bill Vaughan

What an interesting New Year.


This morning, played mahjong with Sister and Mom. HAHA and this stranger and she lost so bad that she wont even join our table -____-" HAHAHAHA and mom lost add her points. She only had 27 points left. Then I attempted to do some of my math homework and my history essay. So fail. I'm not even doing it anymore. I swear, its way too hard! I'm gonna watch dramas loool Made bubble tea today :)

I remember 2010 like it was yesterday.- tumblr LOOOL


OMG sale at hollister! 40% -___-" Great and I brought my hoodie for 50 dollars tooo! Might buy another one tomorrow.So much for saving up D: and I'm going to Jessica's tomorrow for secret Santa xD

♥ Happy New Years 2011 新年快樂 ♥

♥ Happy New Years 2011 新年快樂 ♥ Happy 2011

Happy New Years everyone. New year, new start. I wonder what I am going to come across this year. And OMG I'm turning 17 this year D: So old now. I should stop wasting time and do what I wanna do. The risks you didn't take are the regrets of your life. I really hope that this year will be different from the past 16 years. I will ensure that. Live and look at life from a positive way. Im going to "try" to put more effort into school and not be lazy. Going to try to get into a good habit of exercising. ( I got gym next semester anyways and swimming in ten days :/ ) I hope we can go traveling this year. I really want to go to B.C.  And I'm going to start saving up for a cellphone and apply to more places to volunteer. I'm going to go out more with friends. I'm also going to try to convince parents to get us a wii!! :D I am going to try. If you think you can, you can. I'm also going to try to watch more dramas. So behind. But first I really gotta start that history essay and finish that math assignment -_-"

生日快樂 - 言承旭
Happy Birthday Jerry Yan 言承旭 Thank you for acting so well in dramas. I really like you in Down with love and Starlit! Happy new years and good luck to you in the future.

Should make some plans today............

Saving up for a macbook. May take awhile at the rate I'm spending....
I still want a cellphone :/

2010 confessions and highlights

I confess that in 2010 I...
- Wanted to tell the guy I liked that I liked him
- Wanted to run away from home
- Spent a lot of money on useless things
- Thought about cheating on a test (but I didn't of course, I rather get a zero)
- Made stupid choices and worried too much about little things
- Hated swimming and still do -_-"
- Loved mile run in gym class! And fittness.
- Wanted to meet my prince charming :P
- I wanted to change my lifestyle by doing morning jogs but that never happened.
- I went through a lot of stress. Ups and downs. Felt bad for giving someone up but I'm moving on.


Highlights of 2010
-Traveling to the states, Chicago and Toronto. Cousins got a speeding ticket on the way there we got one on the way back lol
-Jessica Tran's house and calling Andrew Tang telling him that he failed his math cumulative.
-Kildonan place with Sister and Cousin and watching the switch I think
-Meeting my uncles from New York and Las Vegas
-Putting together the drama at Chinese school
-Seeing Mr.Warnick at starbucks and Mr. Shedden at Sears
-Buying myself an ipod touch
-Going to the beach with family and burying chips in the sand ;)
-Watching the Olympic hockey game. Canada vs U.S.A and Canada won haha
-My uncles birthday at kum koon. Me, sister and cousin had great conversations!
-Went to buffet square on my dad's birthday and sister took a WHOLE plate of food! hahahahahahah
-Going to St Vital with cousins and met this man asking me if I was Japanese
-Polo with Jessica, Mayanne, Mandy and Patricia. We chilled at the food court.

I hope that 2011 will bring me even more memories that I can remember forever.

2010

2010: Your Love Life
Did you break up with anyone?: nope
Were you broken up with?: nope
Did you get anything for Valentine's day?: nope
Did you meet anyone special? yeah.


2010: Friends and Enemies
Did you meet any new friends this year?: YES! a lot.
Did you dislike anyone?: YES -_-" after all those years."pirate girl"
Did you make any new enemies?: I hope not
Did you resolve any fights?: not really
Who was your closest friend this year?: Jessica Tran. Good times in history lool! Janelle, good times in biology :D and her family tree hahahahah
Did you grow apart from anyone?: yeah a few. they moved to different schools
Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?: nope.


2010: Your BIRTHDAY!
Did you have a cake?: yup
What did you do for your birthday?: I wrote my geography exam.YAYAY -_-"
Did you have a party?: nah :/ it was sweet 16 too
Did you get any presents?: money :))
If so what was the best thing you got?: money $$ (:


2010: All about YOU
Did you change at all this year?: yeah I did actually.
Did you dye your hair?: nope. my dad would still kill me hahaha
Did you get your hair cut?: yup
Did you change your style?: yeah I did.
Were you in school?: Sisler! grade 10 and 11
Did you get good grades?: surprising I did this year. :) gonna keep it up
Did you have a job?: nope
Did you drive?: YES -_-" driving hates me. Still cant reverse and park.
Did you own a car?: nope
Did you go on any vacations? yes went to Toronto. Niagara falls! :D
Would you change anything about yourself now? yes I would. I really would. I want to give myself chances and people around me chances from now on.
2010: Wrap Up.


Was 2010 a good year? it was. better than last year in terms of grades :D. I met people that are special to me and I'm so glad I met them. Met people that made me smile and met people that made me cry. Watched a lot of awesome dramas like Personal Taste, down with love and playful kiss. Also putting together the drama for Chinese school and performing it. 
Do you think 2011 will top 2010? It may and it may not. It all depends on how we look at it. I make many promises to myself but I don't keep it. And next year lol I will.

2010 Wrap up

I did this last year and it made me think back what happened throughout that year. Made me laugh and smile so I wanna do it again this year.

2010 IS ALMOST OVER, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?

lost a friend? nope. I met a lot of new friends and talked to people I knew but don't talk much! :)

kissed someone new? nope.

had your heart broken? somewhat :/

had a stalker? more like I stalk someone

done something you've regretted? yeah, giving up someone that I wished I went for.

lost someone? no. thank god

got fired from your job? still don't have one -_-"

cut class? nope. I'm good this year. Except maybe leave the classroom to "go to the washroom" ;)

were involved in something you'll never forget? volunteering with children's wish. It was great. We got hot chocolate. It was something

visited a different country? the states. LOl went to Toronto this year which was great but its still in Canada.

lost something important to you? I don't think so lol

got a gift you adore? nope. :/

Happy New Years Eve Everyone

"Without some goal and some effort to reach it, no one can live."- Fyodor Dostoyevsky

Wow another year passed by like that. I cant believe 2010 is over already! There were ups and downs. I met new friends and teachers. There are moments that I will never forget. Next year is a brand new year which means a brand new start. No matter what I will face next year I will always try to look at it from a positive way. Even though it may be hard.
Actually, you don't have to wait for a brand new year to start over again. If you really want a fresh new start you can start anytime. As long as you are willing to try and this time I am willing to try. I will give it my best shot and live everyday to the fullest. I am going to let go and forget. I am going to start a new.

2010 gave me a lot of memories. I'm glad to experience it and it will always remain in my heart. Even though I made mistakes and regrets its already the past and there is nothing more I can do about it. The only thing I can do is to look forward and live happily. What does it mean to live? It means to live a happy life right? This year, I want to try things differently. I want to give myself a chance and everyone else around me. Sometimes to live a good life is to live with an open mind. I cant change my past but I can change the way I acknowledge problems in the future. If you are willing, anything can happen. Including miracles. You can change. 


Just smile and there is nothing you cant over come =D

Mischievous Kiss